Even if it’s just for a second
that pressure weighing down on my heart is lifted
and I can finally feel what I'd been avoiding for so long.
I’m terrified yet so prepared
to let in what I’d locked out;
every cell in my body telling me to retreat again.
But you help me to feel calm,
whispering that I can.
Your warm hands on mine
as I open up my heart
every emotion pouring out,
you catch me as I fall apart.
The present is nonexistent when I’m with you
an empty mind with no thoughts to interrupt;
it’s just us two.
As I close my eyes
and take that breathe I didn’t know how much I needed
I feel everything
yet nothing
that small little girl who had once retreated,
steps forward into the light
to finally face her demons.