You tell me to go to you if I'm ever feeling lonely
I know you mean well
I know that you're saying this so I'm not close to attempting again
But that won't solve anything
I don't want to leave because I feel lonely
I want to leave because I feel dead
I don't enjoy life
I haven't enjoyed life for the past 6 years
Whats the point of living in an empty shell?
It was never about being by myself
To be quite honest I expect to be by myself
It is about how tired and dull life makes me feel
If I can't live it for myself then what's the point
Please, stop telling me to live for you
Instead teach me how to live for myself
That's the only way you can help
I love you