In my self there is a beast
It stays dormant inside
But some times it has to feast
I am the real Jekyll and Hyde

The monster some times comes out
Even though a nice person is who I try to be
It makes me scream and shout
But I always seem to hurt the people closest to me

I try to figure out whats the trigger
Whats my full moon
Because I want to stop what makes me so bitter
And I want to stop it soon

I finally realized what causes this madness
I should have always known
My full moon was kindness
And the only cure is being alone

As I look in the Mirror
I recognize what I see
But its not clear
If this is really me

As I was a child
I was always free
My heart was so wild
I could be who ever I wanted to be

As I was a Teen
I Had to unlock the key
How I wanted to be seen
And who I wanted to be

As I left school
I learned what was really me
I no longer tried to be cool
But who I was accurately

Now I am a bit older and have done all the things I have done
I and I have become who I was supposed to be
But I don't think the choices I have made were the right ones
Because the person in the mirror I see
Is no longer me

I feel like I am going crazy
because all I can see
Is artists being lazy
But thinking they are better then we

They write poems on how they are the only one
They can't even poke fun
They take every thing so seriously
And attack every one furiously

I want to write a nice comment for them to see
But to them you're nice comment is just you paying a fee
They just see the comment section as their personal fleet
Who are just their to grovel and kiss their feet

They are a bleeding heart artist
And every one should know
They are the smartest
And we should all tell them so

No one will ever under stand them
No one will no their dream
But I just say **** 'em
Because they don't under stand, they're more pathetic then they seem

I live in the most beautiful kingdom
In the middle a Crystal Castle
Its a land full of so much wisdom
But living in it is such a hassle

All the plants glow
They are such a beautiful sight
But I cant stop them grow
Because I can't trim some thing made of light

Every pond of water is a beautiful blue
But looking in, there is no reflection of you
Going swimming is some thing I wouldn't try
If you ever did, you would realize you are falling through the sky

Every person here is the most beautiful person you ever knew
The men are so handsome, the women so fair
But every persons a statue
And they always stare

My Crystal Castle is always meant to last
But its hard for me to live for ever when its made of glass
Every little corner is as sharp as a nail
I alway ***** my self and leave a ****** trail

The sun is so beautiful it always makes me think
Its the kind of beauty that I always wish to strive
It burn the sky to a lovely pink
But tries to burn me alive

My kingdom will last forever and will always be my home
But its the ugliest beautiful place
I am forever stuck in here alone

Time is always moving
Its a untouchable mass
You can't stop it from improving
Because its in an hour glass

I am just a fool
Who likes to break the rules
I will use every tool
To reach the untouchable jewels

I am tired of the hands I have bin dealt
And always asking why
I am tired of the way I have felt
I think its worth a try

I break open the top
To make so the grains wont fall
But still they drop
but I won't let them all

I start to make a try
To make a castle in the sky
But as I shape the sand
It slips through my hands

This was all for not
Soon I will have to say good by to all my friends
I just have one more thought
Before I reach the end

Why did I always try and make a change
And feel this way inside
Life is some thing you can not rearrange
I should have enjoyed the ride

Ignorance is bliss
Thats what some say
But after watching true ignorance
You may feel the other way

This is a true story
It happened while I was young
It was about my puppy
But it didn't take away how much it stung

My family had a dog
Rocky was his name
But one day we got a new puppy named Jamie
And soon they were playing games

Rocky was getting old
My parents said to heaven it would be said
It made my older brother cry
But I didn't know what it really meant

I loved both of my dogs
We had a pretty good bond
But they could speak a language
That only they could respond

When day I came come home
To find rocky wandering around like he was blind
My parents called the vet on the phone
and left me and Jamie behind

That night i had felt some thing
That I had never felt before
I finally understood why people were crying
But Jamie just waited at the door

Ever single day
At the door she would stand
I tried to explain it every way
But she just would not understand

Imaging waiting for a friend
One who would never come back
Never knowing it was the end
And having your heart stay cracked

I think it was all that heart break
And all the fearing
That gave her cancer
Because she wanted the end to be nearing

It was sad to watch
Having her go through so much pain
It felt even sadder
Knowing Rocky went through the same

Soon they came to pet her to Down
My brother held my hand
But in fear Jamie looked around
She did not under stand

It must have bin frighting
What a way to go
To feel your muscles tithing
But still having one thing you needed to know

If only some one could tell her what we all said
You will never ever again see your friend
And soon you will be dead

There is no more to the story
Nothing left I have to say
But I would rather die knowing
Then ever having to die that way

I only have my self to confide
I don't look people I the eye
For fear they might see inside
And tell this mask is a lie

I'm down
I'm beaten
From the inside I'm being eaten

I'm tunge tied
I'm twisted
I'm screaming inside
I'm a misfit

Any time I feel loves bite
It reminds me of a parasite
I become its host
But my love wont let me close

I'm down
I'm Beaten
From the inside I'm being eaten

I'm tunge tied
I'm twisted
I'm screaming inside
I'm a misfit

Every night I dream
Of releasing who I am inside
Showing I am more then I seem
And no longer trying to hide

Every one would love me
No one would throw a stone
But then it occurs to me
I can't do it without a back bone

I'm down
I'm Beaten
From the inside I'm being eaten

I'm tunge tied
I'm twisted
I'm screaming inside
I'm a misfit

I look down
And I see
Some one beaten just like me

I look around
I can't believe I have missed it
I'm surrounded by other Misfits

You kick started my heart
When we made eye contact from afar
I knew it was just the start
I had to know who you are

Courting started slow
I didn't want you to know
It was going to be a surprise
I wanted to see the look in your Eyes

I took you to my home
I shut off my phone
Nothing was going to stop us
From being alone

I started with your neck
You turned away
I like it when you play hard to get
But I always get my way!

Oh the months we spent
You don't know how much they meant
But you wanted to go home
And I would not let you leave me alone

It ended with your neck
So pretty and long
I gave you one last little peck
Such a beautiful Swan Song

I drove to the river with my car
I watched you drift away afar
Lost in the black
My own little shining Star

Little boy in blue
If only you knew
What you did back then
Changed me and you

You were always so happy
You ran all over the place
Your home life was scary
But it never showed on your face

You had so many friends
You thought would be till the end
Until you moved away
And alone you had to fend

Life became so scary
You hated being home
But here there was bullies
Who wouldn't leave you alone

Over time you grew
Into the man you are today
But still I wish I knew
Who I would have bin if I stayed

Let me tell you a story
About the boy I loved so
Its not always pretty
But thats just how life go's

It all started at a party
I met him through my friend
It didn't take long
For our hearts to blend

He called me is little dove
He made my heart glow
My mother called it puppy love
But what would she know?

I tried to be careful
But it all happened so fast
I finally felt special
I wanted it to always last

He showed me his favourite songs
We loved to sing along
Some times he would sneak out
And we would watch the stars on my lawn

One of those nights we took it
To a place never before
We were both so nervous
But he left me wanting more

A month later
Nothing felt the same
He start leaving me alone
And treating my heart like a game

One cloudy night
He ended it at the park
He said I just wasn't right
He left me in the dark

It took some time
For the pain to end
But then he committed a crime
And dated my best friend

Over the time I would heal
And all my wounds have sealed
It was just puppy love
But the love I have now is real