There are always first times for things
Like the first time you took a step
Unguided by your parents
The first time you were kissed
By someone who wasn't family
Or even the first time you learnt to ride a bike
Without the training wheels on
But there are also first times for things that didn't
Like the first time your mother didn't tell you goodnight
Because she was too busy and forgot
The first time you didn't celebrate you birthday
Because you were getting too old
Or the first time you didn't see someone you love
Because they were no longer alive
And the worst part about these first times
Is that you don't see them coming
They are what always follow
The last times that you never expect
*But sometimes the first time you didn't do something
Can be more painful then the last time you did something
Due to her OCD my sister has not been able to touch me since I was about 7or 8. I still remember the last time she hugged me, but every day that she doesn't hug me seems more painful then that last time she did.