I’m constantly risking my freedom for reasons I don’t know why I am choosing to make mistakes I shouldn’t be out of work because I lost 3 jobs in 1 month & for someone with my background that’s totally unacceptable but it’s because of drugs I became addicted to crystal **** & let it control my life I’m always going insane because I can’t stop I let it take control over my life! I’m helpless watching from the inside as the world revolves yet I’m still having complications with the dark side of the moon where I’m not accepted only playing the part by placing myself in harms way, I finally bought a car & it was so bad that I can’t show it to my family without saying something about it I don’t know what to do with my life but get high to get by I’m a felon with limited resources I wish I knew the secret to life so I wouldn’t be in the dark with the deamons I wrote a poem for her & she didn’t even want it I feel like my spirit was trying to be free & now there’s a note in my wallet I don’t wanna read it because I don’t want the emotions of the seriousness to attach to me what I need is a miracle.