My mother yelled the other day
"Take a shower, brush your teeth-"
"Wash your clothes and listen to me!"
"Please do the dishes before you anger me!"

Yet concrete forces me down to my bed
Chains wrapped around my heart instead
Moving a limb is an impossible feat
Pure numbing pain crushes me

This feeling curled in my bones annoys me
As it did when I was only 6 and untrusting
Lies sprouting and sharp as from a garden
If only I could say, "Hey stop it."

My mother yelled at me today
"I gave you love and gave you strength-"
"I wiped the tears you spilled on rainy days!"
"If not for me you would have been left with no one you see?"

The love you gave wasn't until you had to show face
I got strength but from the way my childhood caved
The tears you wiped was when people died
Even when you were "there" I had no one by my side.

My mother sobs tears with rage
"Things you've done affect others as well-"
"It breaks my heart I couldn't help,"
"I'm sorry I didn't notice you weren't well."

Mother of mine why can't you see?
I just want a hug and cuddles- listen please.
I didn't have childhood but please forgive me
Sorry oh sorry for hurting you so.

Please just let me go.