I was under the impression that even with this crippling depression I could count on the thought of you to keep me from my regression into the pain that is felt when you are absent
I was wrong.

 I just wanted to hold you in my arms, I was so scared of letting go, I watched as you walk away, leaving me to my thoughts alone
Thinking I'm not good enough.

These thoughts, a Tsunami, its destruction attempting to tear apart my life, taunts and seeks control over me. But I, desperately waiting for you, resist them.

I have been searching for what I could say that would bring you to love me again. I try to call out to you begging for an answer begging for you to come back.

But I know you won't. the nature of the comfort you sought has brought you into another's heart

But I need you!
I need you to tell me!
I need to know why!
Why I wasn't enough?!?
Why did you leave!?!?
come back....
 please....

Be the one who accepts me.....
Just like you promised.....