Tomorrow my birthday is here
I would be excited you might think
but for me it actually stinks.

Tomorrow my birthday will cause a rise
on social media and all get reminders
so it doesn't really mean the same as once in the past.

Tomorrow my birthday is here
when people try to make me happy
with words filled with cheer & sweet wishes
~overall I'd rather hide out,
Sit all alone just me being me doing
the things that give my soul the most tranquility.

Happy Birthday to me,
Also to you the reader but if you rather
go hidden under the radar and feel kinda like me,
Like my poem, So Tomorrows my birthday~
why should I care?  this is what I have been thinking.

Okay So maybe I care a smidge,
Mostly not!! because of my depression and my people regression;
My spirits emotions are on a sliding scale basis,Never knowing if today will be downer,
Happy or sleep and skip something to eat;
"Yep I'm getting skinny at least I look Good" so that is what they say."
If 0nly they knew I am not feeling good , My soul is jaded while my heartaches too many losses over years adding up now and the stress of life events puts
my sanity at stake this is why I write it helps to pour it out try to get rid of the filth and grime of unhappiness within, Tears on a whim this is the state I find I am in.

My Sadness is great so my Birthday is a blunder its here tomorrow
For some reason I am not looking forward I am continuously somber,
Maybe I'll sleep or buy myself a gift now that's
:)Birthday Therapy!! :) and I won't forget the treat!

Thanks for reading my pity party for me not being
excited for my own B day iz here. thanks for you being here.
For you I wish you happiness and hope. leading you to great things
~there that is my birthday wish now Go, Make it true. may gladness fill up your inner you.