I catch a glimpse of 2021
from this neighbourhood sometimes
looking exactly the same
but now it’s just mom dad and I.
I used to have so much to explore
the mansion of ambassadors
spending bucks at the convenient store
and our never ending lore.
You would’ve loved my balcony
and my big yellow chair
I re-tell the same story to different friends
to equate the feeling of having you there
my sister, you were
sometimes the only family I had
our last trip, at the hawker stall we said
“I think you and I are soulmates”
Even after two years
I still want to tell you
from the ire of going to work
to the man who ended my life for a while
we’d tell each other just give me a break
and i miss you when are you gonna visit
ear twist,
arm squish,
car parked in front of my porch
I used to only have you
but felt like I had more than what I have now
you’re the love turned into a loss
and your spot still remains untouched.
I've been living with my curtains and blinds down, and today the bright bedroom really reminded me of the whole ambience when I still had you around.