It's constant.
The crying.
Like a scene on repeat, and I can't turn the TV off.
I feel lifeless.
I want to be the pendulum swinging beneath a broken bridge over cold rushing waters.
I feel drunk.
Without being drunk..
I hate what happened.
I don't want this anymore.
Even if I do manage to fall asleep...
I have to wake up and do this all over again.
Never escaping this nightmare.
And continuing to cry.
Every day.
Gone.