Another shafting
Blindsided
Another dagger in the heart
After you said you wouldnt
Followed by an endless period of waiting...
And for what? Another dagger?
Youre just like the rest.
Cant open your mouth to save me but oh so easilly it falls open to degrade me. And off you go like the most innocent thing in the world.
Heartless maybe, innocent? No. I've grown tired of the  blame game.
I need a truth. A love truer than your fickle betrayals.
You hurt too much and i cant afford you any longer
my sanity is as priceless as your shallow pride.
I find myself hanging on just to let go. You have failed me and the worst of it is you never even deserved the chance to try.

love takes hold with its ethereal arms and bends me to breaking
out of reach but never out of heart
pull me closer when I just want to get out alive
its not possible
that kiss you sent upon the wind hit me unfairly
it spun me around and I flew just as high as I fell to the ground
was down with love and ok there.
I was surviving, making it through.
now I'm reeling, wondering if there isn't just some way,
to unwrap my soul from around you and be ok to lose you without ever letting go
so take this loving hug upon the wind,
it fell from me willingly to find you
for these lips are too cold and don't say the words,
but this heart does things for you again and again
and my head refuses to intercede.
it seems to know its hopeless and awaits the thud after the flutter.

oh dear sister how easily you forget

I can not read your mind we are not twins

nor are we travelling on the same frequency.

I can not ask you what you need if you do not answer my calls

and shout at me when I come to find you.

sister dear, I know you want me to make you shine

and polish the silver ware and forget my cooking flair, fine.

but, wasnt it you who had said:

"if your inviting that vegan friend"

that I had to cook something she could eat at the spread?

and now youre all huffed and puffed and natiness instead

when I have organsied to cook it together with this friend

because I was trying to contact you and got no response in the end?

I didnt blink when you and mother dear went shopping and planned all the fare

I didnt baulk when you asked me to buy the meat nor did I care

I didnt say anything at all when you didnt include me

and nothing again when you didnt call to advise me

now I didnt deserve that stupid display

and especially since you and mother want to put your wears on display

your facebook anitcs are something to annoying to see

#hashtag food selfie  

and well  I guess you dont want to see the shine in me

but the memo came at birth, I know its your own ball

Im only here as a front in front of you and mothers friends

playing happy family to whatever end  

just be glad I'll come at all thanks to my vegan friend

Her name is not 'that vegan chick' its Melissa

so do your own polishing.

News flash: Im not the ugly sister.

to ******* is to know you in some intimate way
and take that private part of you with me
to mess you up from the inside out
the way you tore up my love nook
swearing you loved me all the way
with each heartless pounding grind of your
badgering ram rod you stupid Tom ****
you gave yourself away
and now we play the fuckery game.

The stars have fallen,
The night's a shroud over dark velvet seas
Blackened and soulless.
The sky has fallen,
the moon refused to rise.
Poignant.

The crest has fallen weary
The rage of Poseidon's realm
Thunders in the thick charcoal air
******* in disdain and pouring fury out
Crashing
Pain, pain, pain.

The invisible sand rushes, grabs and pulls
Sinking, pulling hope into the pits of despair
Rushing backwards dizzily, swallowing deeper and deeper
Lost eyes in an unlit void screaming brightly
Blinding
Lies, lies, lies.

A fury so black.
A sadness so dark.
A love lost forever
the moment it was spoken
The stars fell out of the sky.