if that was my definition
then it was too easy
making it harder
to not look petty

I don't want to be here
littlest thing needed trying
bigger things are overwhelming

gusto muna mawala
konting hakbang
kahit pagsisihan
gusto ko muna mawala

creation
maybe, isolation

that I'm in this kind of flow
learning and re-learning more within

disbelief,
needed a reason
chaos deciphered

tickles me
a eureka moment
maybe
this is how I currently love myself the most

I fear to be seen
not by you
no because..
"Don't you want to?"