Amelia

Amelia Jun 2021

Step Up

you have taken a lot of my energy
little by little, day by day
not that i didn't notice
it's for you to take

energy though
as we all know
can never be created
nor destroyed

i am running out
you see
so you might want
to give some back

to fill the void that is
slowly closing anyway
i don't need it
but i sure am want it

just give it time and
make it more bearable
for me, who loved you,
so dearly

Amelia Jun 2021

oras

ayoko ng naghihintay
ayoko ng hinahabol
magkasundo naman tayo
bigyan ng pagkakataon

Amelia Jun 2021

Sinasabi Ko

Sobrang hirap simulan
Kay dali naman iwanan
Nasaan ba ang bakit
Hahanapin saglit

Sinasabi ko
Hindi ako tatayo,
Hanggat 'di ko 'to natatapos
Kaya ko na to

Amelia Jun 2021

Miserable

I’m the Tardy one
I was often even called Miss T.
Things could’ve been better
If I wake up earlier
Maybe they’d talk to me over breakfast
And know me
Maybe I would learn how to take my time
And not decide to quit
Every time I think I ran out of time.

found in my drafts dated sept 2020

Amelia Jun 2021

SELF BLAME

Is this love?
I want to prove myself to you.
Am I confused?
I wouldn't care believe me, it is love.
I just wasn't as naive.
You did not love me as much.
Now I'm confused all over again.
Was it love?
Did you have to prove yourself to me?
I am confused.
Tell me what this is.
Let's not make it complicated and tell me.
Where did I go wrong?
Do soulmates exist?
Can you unlove a person?
Am I not enough?
Answer me.
Just tell me.
I could fix things.
Answer me.
Just tell me.
Was I not worth it, anymore?
Maybe if I..

#dear

Amelia Jun 2021

When Did It All Began?

I wish I pretended I dozed off and didn't hear a thing
Those three words wasn't meant to be acknowledged
I wish I waited
Even just for a little while
Keeping it all to myself
When would you have said it?

I wish I didn't knew you had a crush on me.
Would I like you before your supposed confession?
I wish I waited
Even just for a little while
Let those feelings naturally flourish
What would you have done about it?

I wish I did not greet you with a joke about your tattered jeans
The first time we met, a story about my parents made you laugh.
I waited.
For a little too while
They would have liked you.
It started here.

#dear