I struggle with hearing your name.
I struggle with seeing your face on my feed.
I struggle with what happened between you and me.
I struggle with the friends i know from knowing your name and place we would hang.
I struggle with wanting you.
I struggle with the fact that we both found someone else.
I struggle with hoping its all for the best.
but most of all I struggle with the thought of you in my heart and mind that won't let me rest..

You make me so ******* crazy out of my mind
I know all you're going through
But I just wanted to make you mine

I know what she is to you
I have stood in your shoes
Hurts to know I've been a fool

You took my world and made it bright
but just as quickly shattered the bulb
leaving me without light

I couldn't believe how hard I fell
when I fell for you. Ouch
I couldn't believe how much it hurt
when you let me go. Ouch
Should've believed I'd fall again
when you entered my life. Ouch
Falling harder and faster than ever before
each night I realize I like you more. Ouch
I find myself with you whatever the cost
you feel like home when im feeling lost. Ouch
I hadn't known a pain like this,
yet everything else melts away with your kiss.
Forgive me for these wild notions,
but with you I cannot contain my emotions.
I dont mean to push for more,
though we've had time its still you I adore.

Within you I lose my fears
Within you I forget my tears
Within you I have listening ears
Within you I see joy through years

I am all yours, dont you see?

My heart
Yours to mend or shatter.
My smile
Yours to brighten each moment.
My soul
To uplift yours.
My laugh
To bring you joy.
My body
Yours to protect and show off.
My all
Yours to leave or make complete.
Because without you my all is weak.

How is Gary..?
How are you..?
Is there something you need..?
Is there anything I can do..?

Appreciative and humble,
We need things not.
I pray for a mumble,
Or some sort of thought.

I can still see the life in his face.
We wait for miracles,
And watch them take place.
As we wait for his warm embrace

I say prayers at your side
while I hope hard you will come back.
Keep holding tight on this long ride,
And know our love for you will never lack!

Gary Mathew its not your time.
We all know this to be true.
Oh brother of mine,
I don't want to see a world with no you.






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