If I'm gonna pray for you, I'm afraid you would not be given.
If I'm gonna take the risk, I'm afraid I will lose.
If I'm gonna be honest, I'm afraid I'll messed up.
If I'm gonna take the slightest courage of telling you about how I love everything about you, I'm afraid you'd hate me.
So I'm taking the step back.
I'm giving up.

We will end here.
And our story will never be told.

Loving someone incapable of loving you back
is better
than loving someone who can love
but won't ever love you.
Better not love at all.

I wanna scream so loud that no one will dare to listen on everything I had in my mind.
*******.
*******.
*******.
****.

She will be turning 22...

She is a girl of sad soul and broken poetries
She doesn't want to be found but always leave traces
She craves attention yet let it slip when it comes on her way
She is a collection of dismantled almost, of chaos and troubles, of nonsense paradoxes
She said she can yet she cried every single night
She sought solitude but tripped over loneliness
She looked for love and found it on wrong places
She tried so hard but life always tried harder than she

But she will be turning 22...

She will be a woman of contented soul and lifeful poetries
She will be everywhere leaving traces of love and happiness
She will be independent of other's opinion and mentality
She will be a collection of adventures, beers and wolves
She will believe in herself and no amount of doubt will surface
She will still seek solitude but never mistook it again as loneliness
She will no longer look for love; for now she knows that love will find her eventually
And she will try a little harder everyday than life could ever did

She turned 22.

I'm no princess
Not even a damsel in distress
I don't need saving.
Save yourself instead.

grieve only for what you can't control

When do you know it’s love?
When you’re in love with yourself
as much as you are in love
with someone.

True love will tell you
that you are
worth
loving.

One day you may lose all the ways on
how to fix a broken trust
But always remember
that you are blessed with a beautiful heart
forgiveness will overflow
and mend all your broken parts.

stop bringing me to cloud 9
stop flying me to the moon
stop keeping my hopes high
i'm acrophobic

i don't forgive easily
i hold grudge
tight and firm
i hold it like an impaled object
stabbed in me
afraid that if I make a slight wrong move
or have the courage to pull it off
i might bleed to death

help me.

we are not our failures
we are what we choose to become after those failures

words that water dead plants

my heart goes
to those
suffering
in depression and anxiety
sadness takes too much sometimes

don't feed on memories
it'll keep you starving

I wonder how could I forget
something I just said
in a blink of a second
but couldn’t forget
every detail of you.

You gotta write what you feel,
when you feel it.
Rawness became so underrated these days.

i think our biggest problem today
doesn't lie anymore
with not saying what we wanted to say
but
in listening only to what we wanted to hear

what's meant to be will always find a way
like a trapped water finding its way out

your smell is the closest
I've been to home

How many of your days here are happy?
And how many of those are real?

He tells me, he wouldn’t.
Yet he ******* did.

I told myself I will forget you.
I didn't say I would do it.

have you ever had a dream so good
that when you wake up
it hurts so bad?

your soul was made to stand the fire
burn the rage of sadness
and like phoenix rise from the ashes

Teach me how to mock a laugh
when you tell me you're in love
but not with me

You can see different souls
in different perspectives
and sync with them