dearest inay,

you won't be able to read this
but still I wanted to write
hoping that angels will whisper my words to you

inay, your passing is the most painful I ever had
no words can explain the pain I felt on that November morning
and after half a year, tears still streaming
I wish I could blame someone
I wish I could just say that it's just a matter of time
and everything will be okay
but I know deep down, everything will never be the same

I didn't tell you before
but you are the definition of a mother to me
you are so selfless and caring and loving
and when I'm with you
I feel like I'm a child that needs protection
not an independent girl people have known me to be

I pray, God will let me meet you again in another lifetime
I wish you could be my child
so that I can show you how good mother you are.

i miss you so much and it breaks my heart knowing that in this life, we will never have a chance to speak again