You aimlessly shot an arrow in the night
Lifting your craftsman bow to the stars
In a fleeting arch it stung me
Like a curious wasp in the spring
There was no pain in my shoulders
Where the arrow had found its owner
A tidal wave of infatuation rushed over my being
A hunger of devotion tickled at my lips
You were my modern Romeo
And I your Juliet
I watched you from the corners
And observed reticent as you looked
You were searching for your arrow
For you didn't know it belonged to me
I gulped my obsession and faced you
Ready for your adulation
But when I spoke and explained the star-crossed night
You threw the arrow in my face
Telling me your lust filled arrow
Could never have landed on me
I waited so long for your amour
Instead I was in possession of your animosity

I always scratch on your door
Breaking my fingers
Begging for your hate
I’m so addicted to the morphine
I can’t decide if I need you or want you
You tell me you love me
Too much for the words to mean anything
Watching my face twist up in pain
Must be pleasure for you
To watch the ones who need you
Be in agony
The morphine has me so consumed
You push me under the water
My lungs start to fail
When you let me go, my legs forget how to move
I come up gasping for breath
When the air touches my face
I won’t stop with the morphine so
You took a molten piece of steel
And branded your name in my skull
All of my thoughts now echo with your name
Every nerve ending sparks up when you look at me
I’m so addicted to the morphine I don’t realize
When you’re throwing me against your lover’s windows
Breaking me and them
Shattering the future and the past
Purposely destroying porcelain in your palms
I’m too addicted to the morphine I don’t understand when  
You hold a lighter too close to my skin
And watch me wither up and cry out
So I take the morphine and let you continue
Since I know if I leave you the burn will eventually
Turn into a scar
I don’t want your so-called art clogging in my veins
For me to stare at and flashback
Keep giving me a third degree burn
For what’s the morphine
Without the pain

I caught you in a split second
You could see the blue paint on the walls chipping
I could pin-point the exact moment
Your breath caught
I was submerged in the sound of your heart beat
Which seemed to slow down a bit
I surveyed your eyes lose something
The light didn't seem as fluorescent reflecting in the blue specks
I witnessed a fly hovering over the plate of food you left untouched
And I studied how lose your shoulders looked when they dropped
The buzz of the refrigerator was deafening
And the silence from your throat was everlasting
I could pin-point the exact moment
I could only watch when your heart broke

Something was etched in my skull
Like the memory of you
I tried to shake your fingerprints off of me
All I did was rattle my bones
I tried
Looking at you
All I accomplished was holding my breath
So you won't notice I caught on it
I tried folding in on myself
I was a deck of cards and you were wind
Part of me wanted you to be the one
To make me collapse
But I didn't have time to think  
Because I made myself fall
You didn't even have to blow on me

Your words make me want to throw up
I can't even fathom why you think I believe you
Your soul is *****
The smoke you inhale has gone to your heart
The good parts of you were sent to the grave
You closed the casket without a funeral
I've been trying to wrap my mind
Around what has happened
What made you so vile, so cruel?
But then I realize
If I despise you, why am I still with you?

The type of love I care for most
Is the admiration
From wind
It tumbles right by you
And doesn't know how to speak
So instead, it blows through your hair
With so much unconditional love
The wind doesn't ask why you don't thank him
For the favors he does for you
Since the boy who loves you
Favorite sight
Is the constant wind tangling and flowing
Through your hair

I could've kissed you then
The madness was alive in your soft eyes
The wickedness burned in the back of your throat
It burned in mine too
But not because I was proud of you
I was terrified
The one I had idolized and craved
Was a replica of me
After I had sworn over and over
I wouldn't change him, I wouldn't change him
I could've kissed you then
But I couldn't have looked myself in the eyes
And been okay with what I saw staring back