Near frost early morning,
Packed bags squeeze
Into the old Oldsmobile,
Ready to leave for college.
I kiss my mother,
Say good-bye,
Hold her tight.
My father passes us,
Moving over stones,
Carrying two buckets
On his way to cows
And milking.
I can't see his face...
Have no idea.
"Art, are you going to say good-bye?"
I hear my mother say.
The words arrest him.
All movement stops.
Shoulders hunched,
He slowly sets the buckets down.
Turning is an agony,
I see,
As though his efforts
Somehow jar the world,
Disrupt natural order, and
Acknowledge chaos come at last.
I see my father's face
Coursing silent tears,
And watch his shoulders shake.
Then we embrace,
We two,
And both are torn
With leaving.
I know with certainty
My father's love
This morning,
Leaving home.
(1978, leaving for college)