He inavded my dreams stealing each one seducing my mind.
I stood watching him in the shower
His dripping wet skin glistened.
My heart fluttered my mind filled with
Salacious thoughts.
He knew I was watching him he let
Me watch and dream.
Tempting me teasing me dropping his towel his towel he pulled me close.
Stealing the air from the lips tongues
Teased breathless bites.
One taste of his lemon drops kisses
Had me wanting more.
Each touch brought me to my knees
Wrapped round his finger.
Grasping the sheets his touch was like
An arrow of delight.
He knew how to make me scream and cry with Pleasure.
Leaving me breathless and speechless.

Catching dreams and living in the moments I know are forbidden.
Lips bitten in the darkness touched with tenderness we both carved.
Covered by a wave of a lustful excitement.
Wrapped in the curves of his body
The place I always long to be.
Crys of pleasure feeling things
My heart had forgot how to feel.
Finding the missing piece of me that I
That I lost.

Sitting under a bruised sky the bitter
Sting of tears kissing my cheeks.
A love that is nothing more than a pile of dried leaves, waiting to be swept away.

Shattered dreams feeling ashamed
Feeling broken.
Its getting harder to hide black eyes
Escape planned.

Slipping out into the cold darkness the
Bitter icy chill takes my breath away.
But I am free now and I feel safe for
The first time in years.

Don't hope for things to change because they won't.
Don't make excuses for them because
There is no excuse anyone hitting
Another person.

Don't suffer in silence walk and never
Look back.

Because of you,
I push everyone away from me never let anyone get too close to me.
Lying awake every night scare to go to
Sleep I don't want to relive nightmares.
My anxiety  ripped away the happy person I once was.
Forgive you because I want to move on with my life.
I will let karma do her job

I knew that he would be a trouble that
Would break my heart.
Taking me to dark places in me that I
Didn't know exist.

I knew that one taste of his venomous lips would be something I'd regret.
But it never stopped me longing for just one taste of a poison kiss.

I knew the longer I stare into his eyes the more lost I would become.
He was a broken beauty that drew me
Into his wicked game.

Writing poem after poem in the hope he read them and say something.
Passing glances feeling angry at myself for allow him in.

I hate myself for loving him and tasting the forbidden fruit I should have just left well alone.

Yes I still crave his touch and I long to
Lay in warm safety of his arms.
I want him to pull me close and steal the breath from my lips.
He made me feel alive he unzipped my core, and touched the deepest part
Of soul so softly.
He made me feel what it was like
To be loved and to feel it.

I can think of nothing else but writing
My poetry on every Inch of your
Body using my lips.

Embracing the darkness inside me
Letting it out not holding it back.
Smashing the masks they give me to wear tierd of the fake faces.
Who pretend they are perfect when its just a well told lie.
I stepped over to my dark side found
That I am both angel and demon.
We all have a light and darkness inside us.
I now embrace the darkness I was
Scared of for long.

All round me are unreal fake selfish faces who hide behind masks.
Carrying knifes made from envy and
Jealously.
Nice to your face while sticking it into deep into your back.
Knifes should be used for cutting up food not for sticking in someone's back.

A stole a childhood a lost teenage
Youth a past I can't change.
You made me scared of everything
I felt angry and guilty for years.
I will not give you one more day of my
Life or space in my head.
Your words might still haunt me but
You never changed me.
Some day I will be free but I won't carry this hate anymore.

She was dreaming,
Of that time they sat and watched the
Fire slowly die.
Dancing in the warm summer rain
Feeling as if time had stopped.
How they  would always slip into the darkness of the night.
Escaping from all the watching eyes
Longing to feel his touch.
Laying naked in his arms skin to skin
Wishing they could stay together.
Knowing that the one thing they wanted could never be.
She died everyone he said goodbye.

They walked hand in hand under the blackberry sky.
He smiled while she sat reading poems to the harvest moon.
He listened as her words softly touched the deepest part of his soul.
Everytime he looked in her eyes he could see his forever live within them.
She was the missing puzzle piece he searched a lifetime for.

She wanted to love him have all the feelings that came with being in love.
His smile made her knees shake his touch set her soul on fire.
She longed to lay in his arms and listen to the beat of his heart.
She wanted to love him the only problem is she, doesn't know how to love him because she was use to never needing to be loved

What is being normal?.
Because it is a question that no one
Has answered.

Dear heart...
Did you really need to choose him?. Why flood my mind, with thoughts of him.
❤️❤️❤️
Dreams of being wrapped in his arms falling asleep, to the sound of his beating heart.
♥️♥️♥️
Why did you show me a look that would rekindle a love, that  Should have Staid sleeping.

You Sell me dreams and tell me sweet little lies.
Pulling me in and pushing me out playing with My heart like it is a toy.
The truth is you will never give me what I need
This is nothing but a game to you.
I am just a toy you love to pick up and put down when something better comes along.
I always wondered if there was a devil incarante but I know that there is.
Because he is sleeping in my bed.

He was her sinful and twisted fanstay
His siren call, was always answered by her.
She was the dark fairytale he loved to get lost in over and over.
Together they made magic that few people could understand.

Most of the time she could carry
The world on her shoulders,
With a smile on her face.
Then there was that one day where
She was battling demons.
Fighting storms trying to keep everything together.
But she always came out the other side
Stronger than before.

All i ever wanted,
Was a dad who would keep me safe
And tell me how proud he was.
But heaven must have ran out of good
Dads.

How i do make you see that this is
Not what i want.
Trying to make you listen is like
Trying to make the blind see.

I sit under a blueberry sky longing to
See your smile one last time.
Feel your gentle kiss on my lips feel your fingertips dance on my skin.
I know this is nothing more than a dream, but it keeps me coming back to him every night.

My dreams are no longer my own
Because your always in them.
The more i try to forget about you the
More my heart calls for you.
Carried out on a wave emotions that leave me breathless.
You make me feel things there's no
Words for.

When night comes i dream of a never
Ending forever with you.

I write in the candle light freeing
My heart of this heavy feeling.
No more do i love thee like i once did
Now its time to let go.

Its okay to struggle and cry
But a better tomorrow is a day away.

I have crossed trouble waters and
Wild oceans.
Hit the ground hard felt alone
Cried in the night.
But everytime i see your smile
It saves me.

LIES! LIES! LIES!.
Being over fluttering to me Pretending
You where there for me.
You can't even tell the difference between being hurt and being mad
I was just a pawn.
Even now you smile as the tears
Roll down my eyes.
I don't care how beautiful you think you are, but if your heart is ugly
That makes you the ugly to.
You take pleasure from other peoples
Pain it gives you a high.
I have tried hard to find the good in you but i can't find it.

Squeeze the colours from my heart and I will paint you a beautiful love,
That poets dream of feeling.

Dreams are my play ground where i
Am far from a cold reality.
Until morning comes.

Sometimes my mind is a dark twisted
Maze that i just want out of.
Finally the sleepless nights and anxious thoughts have caught me.
If anxiety and depression was a light
Switch i would be happy to turn it,
And sitting in darkness.
So i would never have to feel like this
Way ever again.

I talk with angels swing on a star
And cry to the blue moon.
Because he understands my heartache
In a way no one else ever did.

Me and the moon have late night conversations.
Reminiscing and swapping stories.
He tells me about his love for the stars and i show him, pieces of my broken
Heart.

My heart is full of deep bleeding
Wounds thats keep bleeding.
Every mistake ever made is put on
Replay so i don't forget them.
Turn the other cheek but to be honest
I am getting tried of doing that.
I love to escape into dreams where i
Am so far away from the pain.
My happiest smile hides all ugly hurtful things said to me.
Sometimes i wish someone would just
Come and take me to a better life.
Because my eyes sting from all the tears i have cried.
Even as i write these words tears roll
Down cheeks.

I don't need a facebook status to let
Everyone know what i am doing.
I can brush off the fat jokes because i have heard it before.
But what hurts me the most is the ones who thinks i can't do anything.
They are the people who cause me
The most damage.

Your like a wrong answer that i
Keep finding over and over.

The fire is dying and i no
Longer know the face in mirror.
Drained and exhausted batteries its
Day three and i feel nothing.

You might have stood by my side but
You never wanted the best for me.
I should have seen the signs.
The more i wrote and shared my work
You grew more jealous.
You took my words and twisted them for your own benefit.
Whenever i pointed out the wrong you did you would turn it back to me.
Trying to use guilt to make me do what you wanted.
You would turn the tears on when
i wouldn't back down.
The i am going to **** my self calls
Started so i changed my number.
Save all the tears.
I am happy this controlling friendship
Is dead.

I've been trying for hours to write
But i am not feeling it.
My mind is full of words images and colours but nothing fits together.
I can't turn words into a poem even
My heart is empty.
My inner ink has become dry and
I have no feelings to search.
Nothing in my poetry journal jumps
Out at me.
Maybe my pen and my emotions need
A rest today because i can't write.

Whenever someone takes an
Interest in my work.
I watch as the anger rolls across
Your face.
Then the bullying starts my poems
Are stupid no one likes them.
You can always write better than me
Asking me if i am listening.
i can see the jealously turning you
Very green.
You told me if i don't stop writing
You make my life hell.
You bully me day and night but i will
Never stop writing.

To some i am nothing more than
A cold heart demon.
To others i am an angel with a heart
Thats as deep as the ocean.

I'll never forget the day.
When we left our phones and thoughts behind.
Lost in the woods we knew so well
Tents up a fire ready to be lit.
Rabbits hoping brids singing the gentle breeze dancing with the trees.
Night falls the stars are out hot chocolate made marshmallows roasted.
Singing songs round the camp fire falling asleep under the stars.
A summers night i will never forget.

He looked me in the eyes and said
My only fault, was i created a lie
That you believed.
In that moment something died
In the deepest part of my heart.