It's easy to forget.
It's easy to over look mens feelings.
Watching while they pretend to be strong.
Forgetting that they suffer just as much as
A woman does.
Women talk men hide their feelings
Because they have to be strong.
Hiding their pain.
Trying to keep everything together.
A smile to hide the weakness.
Taught to just bottle it up and keep
Going suffering in silence.
But your not weak.
Your strong it takes a lot show your pain.
We need to show men that its okay to cry
And you don't always have to be strong.
We all need someone to walk with us
And show the way, and men are no different.
Sometimes saying hi how are you can change
Someone's day.
We need show men it's okay to feel pain and it's okay to fall part.
We need to teach young boys and girls
That you can be strong and weak.
We need to teach them that asking for help
Is not a bad thing.
So to all men that on a journey and trying to
Find their way back to being them self's again.
Your not weak and you find the light in the darkness just hold on tight.

Let down all my life.
No encouraging words.
Left with a bad taste in my mouth.
You where not the greatest father.
You where the greatest con man.
A slide of hand a well polished lie
Everyone swollwed.
Now all the fathers day reminds
Me of how you where never there.
You knew more about other people's kids than you knew about me.
I wasn't a boy called Stephen.
I was a girl called Stephanie.
But I still wasn't enough for you.
You left me out of everything.
Never once did you buy me a new toy.
Never once did you take me out.
Instead you acted like i was a punching bag.
Something to hit when people didn't
Like you, and could hit my mum
Because it would be hard to explain another black eye.
So I will raise a glass to you.
The worldest greatest con man and
Say thanks for nothing.
Because that's all I ever learn from you.

Feeling numb and empty.
Surrounded by masked faces
I no longer know.
They greet you with a fake smile.

They ask how are you and then
Look their phone.
Not waiting for you to answer.
So i say everything is fine.

Pouring my heart on to blank lines
Of my notebook.
Happy when night come because
I can escape for a while.

The world is falling apart two
Black life's taken.
Yet they tell me to cheer up
That it is not my problem.

We are living in a fake society
Where its okay to live a lie, and
Judge anyone who doesn't fit
Into that mould.

Haven't you notice how every picture
Has a smile that tells a thousand lies.
My friends look at each other and
Say #letstakeaselfie.

Feeling like a paper boat on a lake
Wondering if I belong anywhere.

Smile for the camera.
Pose like your enjoying the moment.
Show teeth but don't show to much.
Talk but don't talk to much.
Saying anything just not what's on
Your mind.
Be anything you want to be
Just don't be you.
Have some of light but you
Can't have it all.
You can be seen just don't be heard.
Look down and not up that's not for
You.
I am doing this to protect you.
It's for your own good.
Ties cut bridges burnt.
Leaving without looking back
Now I can be whatever I choose to be.

I stick my foot in it so many times.
I sometimes speak before I think.
I sometimes make mistakes.
Make the wrong call.
Mistake a male poet for a woman
Laying in bed dying with embrassment.
Just know that my heart is in
The right place.

Her words still linger in my head.
Now she is being the great pretender.
Its all mellow smiles and happy moods until the last puff is taken.

It's hard to forget when someone says
I want to **** myself everyday.
Now today they are full of a high but
It is not on life.

She tells me the **** helps.
But I fear it is doing more damage
Than good.
Because life's problems are put on
Hold.

Then the bone crushing fall to reality
With a bang happens.
We find out selfs back to the start
A over again.

I can help but wonder.
Am I the bad guy for saying this
Running away does not fix things?.
Am I the bad guy for saying covering
Your ears causes more harm than good.

Day by day as minds become wasted
The more drug dealers win.

I will never know,
What it feels like to kiss his lips,
And feel my heart race,
When he calls my name.

I will never know,
The feel of his hands dancing
On my skin under the silver moon
Light of midnight.

I will never know,
How feels to wrapped up in his
Soul feeding on each soft moan,
He drops into my mouth.

I will never know,
How it feels to drown in his
Dark blue eyes, and swimming
In the beauty that most people
Never get to see.

They will always be unknown
Pleasures I will never feel,
Yet I still love him bound to him
As if he is my twin flame.