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219 · Jan 2015
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Justin Case Jan 2015
:,(
I miss you Alex
What else is there to say?
212 · Dec 2014
What Is Happening
Justin Case Dec 2014
I saw signs of you twice today.
You appear and disappear like a faint smell on the wind.
Why do you have to do that,
Show up and disappear before I can even see you?
Leaving only traces of yourself for me to hold on to.
But at least I know you are around and still care at least a little.
That's a nice feeling, so thank you.
Would you mind staying around for a little next time?
Justin Case May 2018
Shared grief may be "half the sorrow", but not for me.
How can I share my pain when I know it will make others sad or worried?
That would make me feel even worse.

What do I have to be depressed about anyway?
I have a good life.
I had a good upbringing.
I have friends and family who care.
I don't have to fight for survival.
I don't have to worry about becoming a casualty of war.

Despite having so much to be grateful for, I hate life.
I don't fear death, I long for it.

But I have to be strong.
Real men don't cry.
Real men don't have emotions.
This has been drilled in my head so much that I don't even know how to feel.

I know I'm upset but I can't explain why.
I know I'm upset but I can't even cry.

All I know is that I have so much to be grateful for,
But I would still rather be dead.
I can't tell anyone because I would feel worse for making them worried.
I can't express it because I don't even know how and real men are strong.
I don't know why I feel like this, but I can't get over it.
Justin Case Jan 2015
I know you don't check on here anymore,
But I still can't post about you.
Because what if you should stumble across them someday?
How would you feel?
Would you miss me at all if you saw the pain I'm in?
Or would you keep scrolling the page,
Pretending not to even see it?
I don't really know, but you'll never see any poems I write for you.
Not that you care.
197 · May 2018
Perfect
Justin Case May 2018
There's no such thing as perfect,
But you could have fooled me
195 · May 2018
Do I Love You
Justin Case May 2018
Do I love you?

Some say that love is when you give someone the power to destroy you and trust they won't use it. You could destroy me ten times over if you wanted to.

Do I love you?

"No one has greater love than this, to lay down his life for his friends." I would die for you.

Do I love you?

Love is caring more for the well being of another more than yourself. I would do anything for you.

So yes, I think I love you.
190 · Jan 2015
Was It Really Love?
Justin Case Jan 2015
Did you really love me?
Or did you just love the person you were because of me?
Seeing how you left me stranded,
I think I have my answer...
189 · Apr 2018
Death Note
Justin Case Apr 2018
I love you.
Don't mourn my death,
I'm not worthy of your tears.
189 · Jun 2018
Untitled
Justin Case Jun 2018
"Never give up on someone that you can't go a day without thinking about."

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder."

Well then what am I supposed to do?
186 · Jan 2015
Untitled
Justin Case Jan 2015
I stopped looking at your pictures,
Because they reminded me of you.

I stopped listening to music,
Because it reminded me of you.

I stopped reading and writing poems,
Because they made me think of you.

I stopped everything that reminds me of you,
So why do you have to show up in my dreams the way you do?
Always coming back to stay,
Being mine forever.
Don't you know how much that hurts,
Waking up and crying because I know it's just a dream?
Please just leave me alone.
186 · Jun 2018
Numb
Justin Case Jun 2018
I'm becoming numb to the pain.
How long will it be until I feel nothing at all?
185 · Jan 2018
Insecurities
Justin Case Jan 2018
I don't take compliments well, and unless I know beyond a doubt that it's true, I won't even believe you actually meant it.

I overthink things, and even after something happens, I will continue to run through everything that could have been done differently.

I don't do emotions, and the more you try to get me to share, the more I start to believe that I don't even have them.

I'm not good socially, and the more I like you, the worse I am. I may seem dull or uninteresting, but I just don't want to mess up.

I know I'm not perfect, or even anywhere close, but thank you for being you and accepting me the way I am.
172 · Jan 2018
I Need You 10W
Justin Case Jan 2018
How can I tell you I can't live without you?
172 · Jan 2015
Untitled
Justin Case Jan 2015
I'm to the point where I don't know if I could ever take you back,
Even if you asked.
That doesn't mean I don't love you,
Because I still love you with all of my heart.
But after this experience,
How could I trust you enough to not hurt me again?
167 · May 2018
Time is Relative (10W)
Justin Case May 2018
It's only been a day but it feels like forever.
Missing you
165 · Dec 2014
To My Love
Justin Case Dec 2014
You say you love me, yet you left me.
You say you care, but you wouldn't even call.
Leaving me was right AND wrong??
What does that even mean? I don't understand.
How did I end up here?
Less than a year ago, life was just life.
Then the most amazing thing happened to me.
I was happier than I ever thought possible, all because of you.
But now, now I just wish none of it ever happened.
I wish I had never gotten tangled in this mess.
I would rather have my boring life back than live in this nightmare.
But the funny thing about it is, I still love you.
I don't know how or why, but I do.
You stole my heart and that cant be undone.
When I told you "forever" i meant it and still do.
I love you forever, and I cant help it.
I'm sorry to say, but my heart belongs to you.
Do with it what you want, but it will always be yours.
I ain't a poet...
149 · Mar 2021
Untitled
Justin Case Mar 2021
The
Thoughts
Fill my head
They just won't    
Leave me alone.             Death won't ease the pain.
How           Long                 It just passes it on to
Must I Suffer? I                                          |_   some
Don't  know if I                                                 one
Can do this any                                                 else.
            Longer.                                        ­         When
Loneliness is                                                      All
Not easy.                                                            ­You
Die                                                          ­            Want
Die                                             ­                        Is death
Die                                                             ­      That's all
Times are tough, but this too shall pass.   You see...
The poem may not make sense, but neither does my thoughts.
A picture is worth a thousand words...
140 · Apr 2021
To Be a Dog
Justin Case Apr 2021
Oh, to be a dog!
I wouldn't have to pretend I'm not excited to see you.
I could be as needy as I wanted,
because even though it gets annoying, people always give in to a dog.

I wouldn't have to worry about what anyone thought.
I could love you to my heart's content and be happy with my life.
139 · Mar 2019
Thank You, Hello Poetry
Justin Case Mar 2019
In the worst of times, Hello Poetry is here for me.
She is the only one I can talk to; the only one that understands.

When I crave death the most, I hear a faint whipser from her.
She calls to me, begging me to let her bear my burden,
even just for a time.

She holds me tight and lets me know that I'm not alone.
She tells me that everyone hurts sometimes, and not a bad thing.
She reminds me that my past troubles have passed, and this will too.

Hello Poetry, the one who comforts me when skies are gray
and all seems lost.
The one who doesn't care if I ramble on about the same thing for hours.
The only one that won't judge me for the things I have done, or the things I say.
Nothing I say is stupid to her, all my thoughts have value.

And even though she knows that once she has revived my spirits
I will leave her and completely forget about her for some time,
She selflessly lets me go, knowing that one day I am bound to return.

Even if that day would never come, I know she would celebrate instead of mourn, for she has helped me finally climb out of this hole that always finds a way to bring me back in.

One day I will be okay, and it's all thanks to you, my dear.
122 · Apr 2021
Not Enough
Justin Case Apr 2021
I try so hard.
I do my best.
I give you my all,
You can attest.
Despite my efforts,
I know it's a bit rough.
At the end of the day,
I'm just not enough...
119 · Oct 2020
One Wish
Justin Case Oct 2020
The genie gives three wishes, but I need only one.
I'd wish to have never existed. Exceptions? Bar none.
117 · Apr 2021
Holding On 10W
Justin Case Apr 2021
It's taking a lot for me not to give up
114 · Apr 2021
Untitled
Justin Case Apr 2021
I give you my all, and you give me your leftovers.
When you're sad I comfort you, when I'm sad I'm alone.
Your problems are mine too. My problems are... mine.

It's hard to keep pouring myself into you when I am not getting refilled myself.

I don't want to give up, but would you even care?
Would you notice?
Would you be better off?
Am I too much?
114 · Apr 2021
The Fisher
Justin Case Apr 2021
Oh fisher, fisher, how can this be?
I'm caught on your hook, were you fishing for me?

Your beautiful looks were the eye-catching lure,
Next find the fish that you'll bring to the shore.

A gullible guppy came swimming on by,
And that outstanding lure went and caught his eye.

He was a bit cautious, but took a small bite.
And at first it seemed like everything was alright.

But next thing you know, he was hooked real good.
He was enjoying his catch, as anyone would.

Things seemed real good when you were reeling him in.
But give him some slack, and things were bad again.

Little fishy didn't know that you would be his demise.
Until you pulled him from the water and he saw the blue skies.

You played that little fishy, from deep in the sea.
But you don't just catch fish, you catch poor guys like me.
89 · Nov 2020
Abusing Myself
Justin Case Nov 2020
Mentally abusive
Totally intrusive
When I look for happiness
It's totally elusive.

Thinking all about you
Thinking things that can't be true
Making fake scenarios
It's all I ever really do.

It's not your fault, it's all on me
I hurt myself, why can't you see?
I'm the one who beats me up
But you're the one who holds the key.
I wouldn't be depressed if my mind would stop abusing me
70 · Oct 2020
Do You Care?
Justin Case Oct 2020
Everybody says they'll listen. They say they care.
But do they really? Or do they just think that they do?
Do they like the idea of being someone that people can go to?

Can they actually handle people coming to them?
Would they know what to do?

If I came to you with my problems, how long before it would become to much for you? How long before you don't want to be that person?

They all think I'm calm, stable, happy, content.
I have years of practice at hiding what's really going on.
Would they like who I really am? Could they handle me?

I am weak.
I am sad.
I am lonely.

Why am I even here?

Lord Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
Take away this pain. Bring me comfort. Ease my suffering.

They all say they care, but I can't risk finding out if they do.
It would distort who I am to them.
They would see behind my mask.

How long must I suffer in silence?
Is there no one I can talk to?
How long can I bottle this up before I explode?
Not a poem, just a vent

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