I stopped myself from falling,
maybe that's a good thing, that I don't have to go all the way,
but I can't help but wonder if I'm ruining it
destroying my heart's capacity for complete love
and it's true, I won, it's through-
but is it a good thing that I cut myself off from loving you?
will I ever be able to let myself go again?
and if someone ends up loving me, what will I do?