The search continues...
And my heart has grown very tired from all of this.

I know you're out there...
Whoever you are...

Someone who is aching just like me.

Wanting to feel a love we've felt before but one that continues to grow and not wither like the rest.

I want to wake up next to you...
And feel your skin against mine.

We'll drink coffee and quote our favorite authors...
And maybe even explore the city a little more.

I know you're out there somewhere...
If only I could find you.
Wherever you are...

I'll keep living each day without you by my side.
It isn't easy but I still make it to bed each night.

I wonder how you're doing.
And if I'm ever on your mind.

So many day dreams have been had.
So many things we have said.

I'm hoping at some point they turn out to be true.
I can only hope that you're true to your word...
And that you'll meet me at midnight along the shore.

We'll skinny dip in the sea with only the moon there to watch.
And we'll see if we make sense together or not.

Goodnight seems to be the hardest thing to say.
Because I would stay awake for days just talking to you.

You're a mystery book I want to read every day.
A thriller I cannot put down.

If the stars would align in my favor...
They would lead you to me.

I feel a connection unlike any other.

So take my hand and let's start this adventure.
We're too young to feel this old.

Though our souls seem older than anyone else would ever imagine.

In my dreams it's all real once again.
I can't shake the thought that you feel free leaving me...

Life continues...
And for the most part I would say I am fine without you.

But occasionally, you appear in my dreams...
Reminding me what I've had...
What I've lost...

A power you still have over me.
Waking with an old familiar feeling once again.

I know that this is how it's meant to be.
But there's always that split second of willingness to go with you...
If you asked...

It screams risk.
It screams adventure.

But I know I'd be rereading an old chapter...
Nothing's really changed even though I wish it would.

I'll count the hours it has been in between thoughts of you.

Some days I find it harder to get out of bed knowing you're not in it with me.

There's this void I think you could fill.
There's this love I could give you.
There's this love I think you could give me in return.

So many what if's.
So many day dreams of what could be.

I struggle with the thought if you're even real at all.

I don't like who you've become.
It's as if there's been more secrets in the room that I wasn't aware of.

And you dance as if I should have known from the moment you've done things.
From the moment you've said things.

I'm still in shock from it all.
Take me down.
Take it all down.

Rip away the newest pages from the book we've been writing.

**** the first draft.

Can we start this all over?
Or are we stuck figuring this out?

My heart has scars thicker than the fog in the morning.
Everything has begun to roll off like it's nothing.
Because I've felt more painful heartache than this before.

You can try to string me along for ages.
I will follow halfheartedly.

I am not really phased by your state of mind.
I'm not afraid of the abyss we seem to find ourselves in.

A black hole of emptiness and fulfillment at the same time.

It's strange isn't it?
To risk anything at all.
Hoping for something more...
Or for the strength to move on from something that could have been.