I’ve been sipping on your words like wine
Extracting every delicious flavor
and component

The enjoyment
in what seems like a simple act.

But warms my body and mind
in ways I’ve never felt before.

I leave you with your own imagination
Your hands create magic I have not seen.

But I am curious...

What will become
of this little indie film you're writing?

You dangle yourself in front of me
With a smile that’s almost devilish
I sin at the thought of you.

Why does this ignite a flame within me?

There's a certain feeling I get when you miss me...
It's sinister and almost evil
Devilish is my ego that continues to feed on your what ifs.
I'll dance in the rain the of your tears
The what could have beens...
You'll wonder why I wasn't the one.
I'll smile knowing it wasn't meant to be.

For a slight moment in time...
You had me fooled
But I won't forget what you taught me

I've remembered how powerful I am.
And I choose to move on despite the challenges.

I feel you in the shadows...
Peeking ever so gently,
hoping not to disturb me.

As I move on,
From Us.

Who are you?
And who am I?

The night glistens with possibilities that could have been.

Where did it all begin and end?

Between us.

It was fast at the start
And as we slowed down...
The roots began to dig into the dirt.
Something grew over time

And here we were,
new to this
with a familiar feeling we carried
all along

At once I push myself further.
The days become weeks of chiseling away unwanted pieces.
Creating scars that crack deep within.
But worth it.
Even if pain stays.
I will keep working.

I miss you like the desert misses rain.
A love with a bitter sweet ending.

Can we begin again?
I hope so.

Why do I always search for the love I need to give myself?

Take me back to the swing set.
Where we first had dreams of who we'd be.

I was delusional and out of sink
to think that someone like you,

liked me.

But I ran with it.
All through the flower fields of adolescence.

Retracing steps to the place I called home.
Where I thought nothing could harm me.
Like you did.

It's too light out to be thinking this dark...

The full moon gleams in all it's glory tonight.

Even the clouds are awake.
The stars blanket around the ideas of who we are...
They whisper of our success.

I'm trapped in a maze I've created myself.
But the moon will guide me home.

Alone.
But here.

And there is no stopping me from shining.

My mind is full of curiousity...
For this new adventure ahead.

And you.

I wonder what your dreams are...
And how much of the world you have left to see...

Does your heart hold an anchor with a chain?
Or do you sail across yourself freely?

Are you willing to plunge into the depths of yourself and see every ounce of your existence?

Are you willing to see mine?

I don't know where my heart is going to take me...
But I'm listening...

Even more so than before.

I have shed a dead skin.
A chapter closed with a kiss...

The journey continues onward.
There's no stopping me now.

Believing in myself feels new.
But I am willing to risk whatever it takes...

For me to see it all.

Be strong...
Even when you feel the weight of the world.

The light shines within you.

Search deeply.

What I am right now
is a work in progress

I do not live for your results
I live for mine

And with every darkening hour
The light still peeks in

I  am willing to keep moving through the night
There is no need for sleep

When reality has become sweeter than my dreams.

I appear on the scene once more
But I don't want to be in the background on this one.

I feel like a star in middle of shining.
My shadow has become a cape I wear proudly.

This is who I am.

And who I am meant to be...

Has yet to be discovered,
adventures yet to be lived.

So I don't ask you for your hand...
I don't ask you for your time...

I ask because I'm a curious mind.

The trees have been blushing this time around...
As I've packed my things and moved on.

Although it only feels like yesterday,
when the waves came crashing down...

I still feel the transition in full motion.

It's been taking a while for this new form of pain to sink in.
Another scar, allowed to stay.

I don't know how I find myself looping around the darkness so easily.

Lighting up the night as if it's mine.

I'm scattered across the board...
But I will regain my composure.

At some point.

I am the sunrise
And like The Sun, I shine for everyone.
The work I’m putting in may go unnoticed...

But there will be greatness shining throughout me. And everyone will pay attention.

I dance with the night like my shadow plays in the day. I’m in the midst of creating something beautiful.

I do not fear the road before me...

Nor do I look behind.

I’ve seen storms of anguish and terror
I feel pain from wounds still not healing right.

The darkness no longer lingers...
as much as I thought it would.

And yet every ounce of my being...
Is still searching for the good.

Our spirits are floating onward
Detaching at the seams

Our journeys have brought us closer
But now it’s time to leave

We bare scars from others love
Mine and yours is differently seen

Although we are going alone,

You’ll always be part of me.

I’ve been fighting monsters
Darker than the sea

I’ve been moving mountains
I’ve been moving trees

Our love has ended abruptly
Shorter than we agreed
And now I must move on

Only looking out for me

I've stepped back for a moment...
To let it all sink in.
Walls still falling, but at a slower pace.

I do not wish to rebuild them.

I am searching for myself through the fog.
As hard as that may seem.

Lost are the parts of me I wish to find again.
The magic has faded.

I will strengthen it again.
I will begin again.

The stars aligned just right
and when our eyes met,
it felt like we've always known what this is.

What we are here for.

Don't ask me how I know...
It's something I cannot explain fully myself.

When the lights turn off I still see orbs.

You channeled me from within.
And here I am.

What purpose do I serve you?
And what will you serve me in return?


A mystery...

Is it willing to unfold?


Are we choosing to retrace our steps back to where we came from?
Am I deciding to resurrect something I still don't understand?
Or am I starting to understand it?

You've gained something in this existence.
Don't let fear stop you now.

Keep pushing longer.
Keep working harder...

And everything will be how it should.

You are love in all forms...
And with stars for eyes;
I pray that you can guide yourself
to the most beautiful existence.

- The Universe

The questions kept coming...
Like my mind was a glass filling with water.

I could drown or swim...

To sink or to sail?

I have chosen to hold my breath...
To force myself to the surface.

To force myself back into existence.

I am the only one who can save me.

I feel weightless...

The skies know too well.
A star far from home.
But I am shining brighter each day.

Because I want this.
I want all of it.

Most times you will find me silent.
Unwilling to put the thoughts into sentences.
But I promise you;
I will return.

Step by step,
Piece by piece,
We will examine each one on it's own.

We'll lighten the darkness a little,
And make it a more pleasant view.

Imagination I leave for you to decide what to do with.

How simple it seems to be

With you.

The days fade out gently.
And I'm sipping on your energy tonight.
It glows brightly.
Like the stars.

I see myself in strangers' habits.
How similar they seem.

Beneath these layers I'll unfold,
Dreams and darkening things.

I'm an artist.
I'm a poet.
I'm crazy.
I know it.

But I'm curious at heart and at mind.

I'm wild and I'll shelter that.
Until I feel you can handle it.

Let's see what happens with time.

Your entrance is welcoming.
A new flower in bloom.

Mystery fills the air
You light my curiousity

My life is just a bunch of images running through my mind.
Bits and pieces get torn in the process.
But I can still tell you most things in detail.

Much like a photograph has a story behind it…
My life is just a story.
But in this story…
There are no pages to be turned…
Although, there are a few chapters.

Isn’t that what life is though?
A living, breathing story?

We put our lives every where…
But just remember it always started with keeping it filed in your mind.
A mental camera.

Soon we were keeping journals and diaries…
Now here I am…
Publishing.

My mind creates thoughts fast enough for my hands to say.
Before my mouth can even form sound.

Where the words are spinning and I catch glances.
Soon, I piece together the puzzle within each day.
Making odd ramblings of nothing sound so creative.
But sometimes they still just feel like a jumble of words.

I will never stop though.

We are all here to tell our story.
Even if no one is willing to listen.

We still put it out there hoping it will catch someone’s eyes.
So we can inspire.

Remembering we got inspired by someone who did it before us.

Here I am.
A little light shielded with shadows.

I haven't seen the world,
or done much.

But I'm here.
I want you to know I exist.

I'm not out to define myself...
I'm just out to find myself...

Fevers break...
And I'm trapped in bones fragile like porcelain.

If only I could find some sort of balance
between fire and ice.

There is no gray smudge amid the black and white.
There's only dark and there's only light.

I'm cold on a hot summer's day.
I'm wondering if you'll stay...

Always.

I'll keep pushing for greatness.
Because that's what I am.

Keep going.

- The Universe

We all have magic within us.
To me, it's clear to see...

That you are capable of achieving anything,
As long as you believe...

For believing in yourself, holds more power than meets the eye.
And with every thought, idea, hope, and dream...
They begin to fill your sky.

It starts with a wish.
You are the fisherman.
Go out and fish.

Those books won't write themselves, and those stories can't be told...
If there weren't some magic still floating around inside your soul.

I can't predict the future.
I can only live here and now.

And if a tree falls in the forest.
I'll believe it makes a sound.

Because I believe in magic and I believe in fairy tales.
I believe in story books about chasing big white whales.

And if I can keep sharpening this craft, deep down inside....
I'll be able to hang on longer and keep that magic alive.

Slowly the weight of the world
seems to fade

The more I fall in love with it.

I wish I could be normal.
I feel so ****** up sometimes.

I can't even be there for you...
In a social setting because people overwhelm me.

You say it's fine and not to be sorry.
You say I should do what makes me feel comfortable.

I feel stuck in between.

I feel the electricity in your lips.
A spark has ignited.

Our souls sing something we've never heard.

I feel it.
Can you?

This is it.
We are growing.
We are learning.
Always.

It's once we learn how to talk to ourselves...
That we find the peace we need.

How do you look someone in the eye for the last time?
It's so hard to think that we will be saying goodbye.
We've ended a chapter we'll reread years to come.
But only in our heads.

As I try to erase whatever polaroids seem to consume my mind...
I am reminded that at one time there was something.
I will never know what that something could have turned into.
But we both agreed to turn our backs on each other.
We knew it wasn't meant to be.

We'll live on in social media likes.
Hidden hash tags with hidden meanings.

Why do you do this to me?

This will never be what you wanted.
Because you changed it all.

I was comfortable.
Silence seemed fitting.
Your image was fading into the background.
Our memories darkening.

You always come back when you want to.
You're a bird with no home.

The world's still asleep...
It makes me feel more awake.

Because in this moment of mixed feelings,
Of tiredness and wiredness and anything in between...

I can sit back and watch it all spin.
Until I fall asleep.

How hurtful the world can be...
When I'm just trying to be me.

Why am I so self destructive?
I can create such beautiful things...
But then I destroy them.

I live with the pettiest of fears.
Ones I can ******* get over.

So why can't I get over them?

******* my destructive self.

Truth be told, I'm not very good at this.
But I am figuring out how to be.

-Life

The thunder calls like an old friend.
I live electric.

But these dark clouds cover me up...
The blankets on beds I've never made.

Shadows share the walls.
They come and go.
They never stay.