The promise, I intended to keep
How unexpected, though, walking into see
Something so wild, something so bright
Reasons new until you're not in thought
Disregarding, Waiting for hello to pop
Something so wild, something so bright
I think your mind processes my thoughts
You're more sincere, gentle yet paused
I can feel something, there's tension between
I can not get my thoughts back from you.
How am I to speak so bold?
I need to find a way to let you know.

Three months duration, the last I saw of you
And I was different, I missed you too much
Today, however, was wonderland
I felt as a child with my brother home again
When we arrived at your apartment
I tried to have you come again tomorrow
Because it was different today, I felt whole
When we sat for dinner, the four of us
I called it family... I called it complete
And I just noticed that spending with you the day
Not one bad thing took place

Each drop falling upon my cheeks
Was like a knife slash in what could be
And I confess
My bedroom rained as my mind drifted into dream
Perhaps, you are the one who understands
The good in the bad plastered and written by hand
My sweater sleeves were drenched
But only because of the  beauty on the sheet
Like a hug from God, your words made peace

I wish that you were here
Because tomorrow I'm going to cry
I'll try to hold it in
But I'll be fighting inside
So I wish that you were
Because... does there have to be a reason why?
I can already feel tomorrow's burden
Something feels deprived
I just wish you were here
Because I feel hollowed out tonight
All I want is to talk again
But you're still too far during these times
Why can't you be here?

A letter with your name came to my address
Inside, it had a promise that I fell for once again
"I plan on being around so much more this year"
Now I've just grown bitter, accepting that you're still not here
Concrete walls and barbed-wire fences
That's where your home is, isn't it?
You're there constantly, do what you can to go back in
A part of me hopes you never come out again
I'm tired of your lies and excuses
And your false atonement for your sins
I'm tired of hoping steel beds will give you back to us.

I was smiling but then you came
And I tugged on my dress
Hoping it had more length hidden in the seams
But you had already said what I was doing wrong
I wanted to run up to my room and change like I never owned that dress
Instead you sat next to me in church, you made me an insecure mess