I am in the restaurant
My friend just left the table
And here I feel all complete

I enjoy being with her
But her leaving remind me how much
I love to be by myself

I guess that’s what we call self love
I spent the all day stress
Now just being alone
Remind me that the smallest thing in life are the one I enjoy the most

Sharing a meal with myself
Watching people around
I never feel alone by myself
This is supposed to make me afraid
Afraid that I loose my social part but I don’t think I do

It’s noisy I am surrounded by people
It’s just me and my beer and I fell complete
I guess that’s what we call self love

The older i get to more i see the world is not perfect
And also realized that it's not that bad

I start to appreciate the bad in the good
and the good in the bad

Heaven always get a little ***** where i live

There is nothing left to say
I will be fine!
Every little lie
I am letting go
I open my eyes

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There is nothing left to say
(When i want to scream about this mess)
I will be fine!
(Pretending that I am alright)
Every little lie
(Impossible to hide)
I am letting go
(Anyway you are already gone)
I open my eyes
(Even if my heart is closed)
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You could just fix it with words
(Don't want to hear your voice)

Angry or sad I don't know anymore
I do things to my mind and to my body like i am angry at myself

But all i want is to take care of myself, be on my own.

I don't want to have *** or even fall in love i just want to feel all wrapped in their arms like I am not alone anymore.

I was thinking it won't hurt but it does. I was thinking that maybe being angry at you will help but i can't manage to be angry at you only at her.

Angry or sad I don't know anymore

When I said i was alright,
I really was!

But now it's all **** up in my head since i know about her.
How could i miss that?
How could i pass by?
How can she pass through ?
(while i am supposed to be your everything)

I keep playing the scenes in my head the one when i am talking with her I know it's not right but it can't help it. It turns  like a loop all over again.
How could i miss that?
How could i pass by?
How can she pass through ?
(while i am supposed to be your everything)

I did not mind to be cheated on, humiliated and rejected.
But it's the feeling of not having be flagged out i can't stop thinking about.

I am happy when I feel angry, I am full of energy when I cry, I am feeling it all when I am disappointed.

All those year not wanted to feel teach me how to twist and fake emotions. I could make you happy when I was down. I could make you angry just because you did not know yet but you will hurt me so I could push you away before letting you touch me.

I don’t want it anymore I will be a ball full of emotions any of them I will let them come in.

Make me angry, sad, cry, love, smile, drink I want to feel. I want to feel so badly

You know after all I think I never really believed in love or any emotion at all.

That’s quite hard to admit that I was so broken that I never let it in properly. I never accept it either.

I think that all those emotions are inside of me I just don’t let other seeing it because I don’t want anyone to be able to hurt me. What I realized is that hurt is uninvatable and it’s part of this beautiful life.

I am sick of hiding my emotions like nothing hurt me. I am not afraid anymore because I prefer to get hurt than to feel nothing at all.

So I am going to danse until I can’t feel my feet, I will sing until I loose my voice, I will eat until I can’t see food anymore, I will cry in front of romantic film until my eye explode and i will love just to get hurt. Because if I keep not feeling anything at all I will loose the best part of myself.
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