Self doubt
and insecurities,
changing all the
possible realities.
Doing random stuff
just to keep
people out of your
head,
not knowing why
they want you dead.

Love yourself
for once,
instead of
killing yourself
a million
times a
month...

this emotion
is growing on me,
as I keep contemplating.
I feel lonely
but keep on walking,
in the distance,
I can't
see
anything.

It's kinda quiet...
so I'll shut my eyes
till the night comes
so I guess I'll just wake up
and start walking again.

I'm like a light switch.
Contemplative.
Reversed.
Alternative moods.
Changing just,
to please others.

Happy birthday
to the girl in a golden dress,
her mind is so dense
she can't comprehend
how that is so
bluntly accepted.

The crowd is cheering
for someone
different,
happy birthday
to the girl
who doesn't
understand,

living life
like its some test,

naïve from the fact
that
no one cares.

You're getting older
***
what would you expect?

Drink me till I'm half empty,
fill me up till I'm half full,
I wonder why I'm always
so dry
to figure out how
I'm
living this
lie,
to live like
a
water-bottle
with not much
time.

incomparable
wishes
coming true.  
Choking on words
we cannot hold in.
Loving someone
on an end of
some string.
Laughing it off
like it's no matter
as it becomes
more
sadder
during the days
when we wished
it was only
better.

Did you ever see the bird?
Trapped inside, locked cage, no freedom.

Did you ever see my heart?
Sinking down, pounding tightly, broken immensely.

Did you ever taste the drugs?
Poor choice, hard hit, inconvenient medicine.

Did you ever hear her laugh?
Breaking down, lips frown, fade out.

Did you ever see his lips?
Dry cracks, thin-lined, love-broken.

Did you ever see love?
Swelling up, bursting lightly, shallow sorrow.

Did you ever see the music?
Changing people, quirky moves, spinning minds.

Did you ever hear lies?
Consume you, guilt built, mad silhouettes.

Did you ever see happiness?
Eyes diluting, jumping high, smile shines.