gimme a hug,
the only antidote to my lonely heart
gimme a hug
the true and effervescent manner of cometh see
gimme a hug
the way to everlasting love
gimme a hug
the fervent route to unblemish happiness
gimme a hug
and i'll forever engrave you on my mind

The crispy ginger bread
for tea.... has gone.
Impatient Hansel turns around
yelling, shouting, screaming...
Oh no! Not my door again!
What a new fresh ginger fragrance!

I cry my heart out
My clothes drenched
with tears
Tears of regret

I bend and kneel
A weak follower I am
On this praying mat
I closed my eyes
I put my hands together
I am all alone... with you..

I seek your forgiveness
God look at me
I Plead "Forgive Me"
I have sinned, I have sinned...
Captivated with the world
that glitters...
Mesmerized with fatal lust
Drowned in  the darkest dungeons
Full of defeats and lies
I lost...

Forgotten Who I am
Who I belong to
How often I said your name?
I have lost the counts

I say your name again
I bow in shame
Head down...
Regrets are embarrassment...
Only you ...
only you I could turn to...

You are one
There is no other
How could I ignore?
My feelings changed all at once
I only need my Allah...
Only my god in time of despair..
Only my god in time of happiness...
I have found my soul again..

Dear God..
You've touched my heart
The deepest place
used to be empty
I fill it with you..
forever and ever I am yours
Your humble follower
God I love you
I have found myself again...

You spat the word goodbye
on my face....
Am I not mad?
Am I not sad?
Are you not mad?
Are you not sad?
Accepting the fact
is Hard truth
There is goodbye
in every Hellos...
Feeling low ... yes!
Feeling depressed... yes!
Feeling lost... yes!
How pathetic is your goodbye.......

We have nothing else
Between You and I
Only fake words
meaningless
Only false hopes
hopeless
Nothing more
Nothing less
Us was something in the past
Goodbye!

Just a moment ago
My soul left my weakened body
A really sad farewell as he said GOOD BYE...
I left, reluctantly but I succumbed to fate
A new journey awaited me..
to my new world, new life, new home...
the eternity... god had promised me..

I looked down upon my lifeless body
My eyes were shut, my body rested on a frozen bed...
I slept here on my death bed...
For too long I cried in pain...
Freezing... in this sorrowful chilly room..  
Suffering every seconds,  minutes , hours...
Every needles is pain...
Couldn't take it any longer ...

God has mercy on me..
He listened to my pledge..
... the prayers of my loved ones..
Brothers, sisters, relatives, friends and strangers..
My misery ended today..

This morning,
I breathed my last breath
Difficult... painful...hurtful...
I said my last good bye...
Sorry I had to leave...
My time ... I met my deadline
Sorry loved ones...I left you in despair
I was too tired, I suffered too much...
I couldn't stand this torture anymore...
Let me go ... willingly.. let me go now

Sorry I was too weak to move
Sorry I couldn’t open my eyes again
Sorry I couldn’t utter  a single word...
My tongue was numb, my lip too tight
I couldn’t even say I was sorry for leaving..
My beloved wife ...
My lovely daughters...
My brothers and sisters..
My relatives and friends...
Please forgive me..
I left you today for my journey of life ended here....

I said good bye
to all the memories
bitter and sweet
past is buried.

I march forward
future awaits
the new year
the new me
write  a new chapter
on a clean fresh paper.

Does the distance
hurt your heart more?
I guess not...
Far and away
Less burden
Less headache
Free and easy...
Your way...

Does my silence
bleeds your ego more?
I doubt the pang of anger
The painful looks in your eyes
Its just your rebellious way
of saying I should stay...
while you stray...

Talk to my hand
I don't say anymore..
Mr Arrogant... have your way
No way!!! I'd stay
Waving my last Goodbye
Anyway!!!

There is no need...
To try to be a Superhero
Be satisfied by just giving
someone's the light
Be their light in the darkness
So their life is brighter
is livelier
than ever before..
Free someone from their darkest life
The best deed you do indeed...

What a nice morning
The sun shines lazily
shyly showing its face
unenthusiastically  shines with its grace
For all mankind and nature it'll embrace
Before the dark clouds form and move
Green umbrella for me today
that matches my shoes
a brief moment of sunlight
an expected heavy downpour later...

Can you hear the claps?
Take a bow everyone
Standing ovation
for today's outstanding performance
let the curtain falls
hear the midnight calls
Good night to all

At a cozy cafe
Sipping hot mocha
Sitting at a corner
Holding my beloved hands
My heart is drumming
My brain is talking
The clock is ticking
Night is approaching
Pretending…pretending… pretending..
Decided to Seal my lips
Hope he hears my heart
Pay the bill please
Thank you Darling,
Good night…..

It was her graduation day
It was my busiest day
It was her important day
It was my DEADLINES day
But I promised her...
I did...

My maternal instinct urged to react..
I threw my files away
I drove like crazy...
Almost hit a pregnant cow..
It stopped in the middle of the road...
Staring at me... You are late MOMMY!!!
ahh cynical cow...

I rushed to the school hall
I came darling... I came...
There she stood sobbing...
I came Ali... I hugged my daughter
She was mad.. She had tears on her cheeks
She had tears brimming in her innocent eyes

I did not apologize… selfish I was
I wanted her to understand instead...
Mommy is late but Mommy is here…
I put my hand on her chest
Mommy is always here...
Doesn’t matter how late…
She smiled a little
She smiled a bit more
She hugged me tight
And laughed and giggled…
My sweet daughter…
I LOVE YOU MORE..

Grandmama holds grandpapa's hands tightly
They are weak, they are cold, they are wrinkly...
What an ugly sight to see....
Unbelievable...
All the years that passed
It seems like just yesterday
when ...
The same hands holds hers
and ties her hand with a knot..
on that blissful wedding day
when she wears her diamond wedding ring..
so proud ...so gay...
two hands hold each other
never will let go of one or the other...

The same hands that carries
commitment and duties..
the solid sweet years spent...
The hand that used to be so strong
is numb... is dumb...
paralyses with time...

Salty tears drop on grandpapa's pillow
the silent tears of one faithful grandmama...
as she whispers.. "I LOVE YOU"...
to her snoring husband...
who no longer feels but seeks her existence...

Till death do us part.....

~Sharina~

When I was a kid
Mom combed my hair
and we sang Que sera sera
This was what she always said to me:
"Sharina Sharina what ever will be will be
The future you dont see..
but you are my pretty girl
please let me see..."
and she turned my head around
kissed my forehead and smiled...

When I was a teenager
I combed my hair every night
missing my mom's beautiful hands
as she brushed my hair gently
and softly said good night

When I turned to adulthood
I combed my hair daily still
making sure its healthy and perfect
and put a head scarf and covered it
My religion says beauty is not to reveal
My crowning glory is not a display
In this way I protected my dignity...

When I got married
The night my love uncovered my veil
Thanking me for saving my modesty
This crowning glory, this body and this soul
is made for him in the most sacred way...

Years have passed...
and now I am getting old...
still combing my hair before i turn in to bed...
my love is snoring on the bed
no longer eagerly waits...
and the hair brush is getting too hard
hurts the skin on my head
painfully brushing my crowning glory
in between the thinning curls
look what I've just found
Grey hair... ochh!!!

Out of habit
I say your name
In a whisper
As soon as I wake up
I remember you
Out of habit
I cry for you
Before I go to bed
I wish you hadn't been
so cruel.........

Ha... Ha...Ha...
Not a giggle
but a laughter
so loud my laughter
Ha... Ha... Ha...
again, can't stop
it clears my lung
and cleanse my soul
ha.... ha... ha...
my headaches gone
my migraines settled
ha... ha.... ha...
Relieved...
younger by a year...

Handbags
She adores designers labeled handbags
Lavished herself in Paris, New York, London
Approximately millions in RM
She had handbags
Louis Vutton, Paris Hilton, Channel etc etc…
Just name them…
Close to 3 thousands I guess
some she bought
some were given
Certainly Not ordinary people
Like you or me
Can afford to buy…

Some years on
All collection are still kept
Collecting dust in the closet
now the only
use for them
is to be stored
away to rot

why were they
not sold?
Imagine the lucrative profits
Can feed millions of poor kids
Send them to school
Make them learn ABC instead
Just another example
of how poverty
is shortchanged
by greedy elitist minority

Handbags

Fetish for handbags...
The last time I counted
Almost 100 of them
Variety of brand names
LV, Gucci, Hermes, coach, Burberry, Jimmy Choo, Marc Jacobs, Fendi
Ohhh.... you just name them..
Some were bought
Some were given on special events

Proud of the collection, love them all
But closet is full..
Keeping some in the store..
Collecting dust , waiting time to rot
Why not sell them?
Donate the profit to charity, orphanages, old folks etc..
Handbags too many...
Can save lives of many...

Handsome is not your dancing eyes
when you smiles
Handsome is not your sunny face
or your well built muscle
I have never been wrong..
in defining handsome
handsome is not your flesh
not your looks
but a little bit lower than your abdomen
Look down...
Its your fat wallet
in your pocket...
Thats handsome...

It wasn't just a flower you gave me
But the whole garden
flowers blooming tenderly in the heart
Colorful roses, orchids and daisies
that cheer my heart always..

It wasn't just a house you built us
But the whole life
Picture perfect family
with brilliant and healthy kids
and one smart cat...
the memories sweet and happy...

It wasn't just what we have
as a family
that makes us happy...
happiness is what we are
in the family..
that makes us complete...
Happiness is us...

Happiness is...
when you laugh out loud..
wrinkles don't disappear
tiny tears at the little corner of your eyes
and you keep on laughing...
don't even care of how ugly you'd look
with that kind of laugh
that rocks the earth
and shatters the world..

Happiness is...
when you feel like dancing...
or doing just anything
you simply waltz, or tango or disco dancing...
just imagine... being able to do what you like...
without caring, hesitating, worrying, doubting...
is happiness indeed...

especially when you think you have put a smile
on someone's face upon reading
this poem of yours...
you've created happiness....
Happiness is made!

We called him Harry
A little cutie.. A little naughty
So fluffy so furry so funny...
When Harry sees a rat...
Harry runs HURRY HURRY
Again the rat runs free..
Ohhh... Harry....
naughty, sweet and funny...

Haters  rapidly continue
Spreading hates and lies
While lovers smile
warmest hearts
kindest words
Love can never be patronized
Haters will one day
succumb to love.......

Sukarkah sekeping  hati seorang wanita itu di fahami?
Is it too difficult
To understand a woman's heart?
Just her piece of heart

Hati wanita
A woman's heart

Kadangkala keras membatu
Sometimes too hard

Bak kerikil di jalanan
Just as hard as the stones
in the streets

Sekeuat  ketulan ais di Antartika
as tough as an iceberg in Antartica..

Hati wanita
A woman's heart

Kadangkala dingin membeku
Sometimes as cold as ice

Kadangkala luka  merah berdarah
Sometimes as red as it bleeds

Kadangkala duka bungkam dan lara
Sometimes too sad, almost grieving

Kadangkala tenang putih suci bak salju
Sometimes too calm, too pure
as white as the snow

Kadangkalanya selembut bulu pelepah
Sometimes as soft the feathers

Hati wanita
A woman's heart

Damai yang dicari
Always Searching for a peaceful soul

Langit tinggi ingin di gapai
Searching in the sky so high

Terbang jauh mencecah awan..
Flying up in the blue blue sky

Bahagia yang didamba...
Every woman seeks happiness

Hanya tersemat di dalam hati
Yet locking the desires  at heart

Tersimpan seribu rahsia wanita
misteri.......
A woman's heart like an untold tales
the safest place where secrets and mysteries are sealed..

Selamanya di hati seorang bernama wanita
tightly sealed in a woman's heart forever.....

I walked pass the haunted house
The huge house across the lane
My legs weakened out of a sudden
My throat was dry,
My palm was sweating
Adrenaline rush!
GOOSEBUMPS  all over...

The unusual cold breeze
sent chills down my spine
I peeped inside the house
Strange feelings I had...
Would never allow myself to go inside
For that is where the witches live,
Where ghosts and goblins hide.

The demons there are whirling
And the spirits swirl about.
Everything is spooky...
The unrested souls howls
See the zombies partying
Shoes, umbrellas and hats flying

But I wouldn't want to go there
So I ran with all my might
And oh I wouldn't  go inside
The haunted house tonight.

Have you ever met someone
All of a sudden...
things were no longer important
your brain froze for a while
Your laziness grew..
Your mood unpredictable...
Your coffee became bitter
Your dress seemed less attractive
Your bread stale and hard... tasteless
Your life upside down... colorless
All of a sudden
you lacked focus...
this person was magnet
grew closer so fast
be the most important
The centre of your thoughts...
between night and day..
and he became the radar
of your life...
He owned the remote control
pulling your life away for a second
putting you back where it was
so you could breathe...
so you could sleep
so you could die
Your life was solely his...
You became a thing...
a posession..
Have you ever met..
someone like that?

Love melts us in one atmosphere
When we breathe
but there seems to be  no more air
Love melts us in one desire
When we hold each other
Two hearts melt together
still we hold each other tightly
inseparable...in this one honored
place
Heaven...

My tears are coming
trying hard to hide it away
pushing my feelings aside
swallowing my pride

my tears are brimming
a pool of hot tears
covering a pair of sad eyes
almost at the edge of my eyes..
Restless I feel, Cant breathe.. I am choking

Unexpected
My impossible dream is here...
Telling me ALL IS WELL...
Telling me life goes on remarkably good
on and on ..
telling me old sweet lies again..

Disbelief
His presence is felt...
Mixed feelings..
My tears drop at last

Foolish
I wipe the tears away

Melancholic
tears drop voluntarily
I smile in my heart..
my dream is here...

He is fine.. he is alive
He is fishing again..
Not a single fish he caught..
But he is around...
...he is here...
watch out.. he is here...

A weak smile
A tired gesture
He acknowledged my presence
I knew he would..

His eyes were fixed on my face
as if..
He wanted to say Thank You
as if...
He wanted to say Good Bye
as if..
He wanted to say Please.. HELP ME NOW

I couldn't avoid his longing looks
I just knew it..
He wouldn't last
another day..
He was too tired with
all these strict treatments
and medications he had to consume
on this cold, cold hospital bed...

He wanted to rest
Desperately needed a break
from the needles
and nurses in white uniforms
He hated the doctors
He wanted to go...

He screamed my name
I was too shocked
Sister I am sick of this life
But I am reluctant to die...
Please... he grabbed my hands
and whispered...
let me die at home
don't let me go in this way...
He closed his eyes and
and let my hands go
He let go of my hands forever..........

Even when love is silent
Love is there
deep in the heart
Always love
Always will
Always remember
I love you affectionately
Can't you hear?
Every whispers of the wind
says Hello I love you...

A sweet hello
From an old flame
Left me in illusion
Mesmerized by the memories
Of an enchanted love
The tenderness of the moment
As we sat there to reminisce
An unforgettable love story
A pang of sadness
As we departed
No more kisses...
No more tight hugs
Just a solemn smiles
And a heavy heart....
Upon realization...
We mature to be
Responsible adults
We took a different path
We differ in opinions  .
A sad goodbye my love
We are no longer....

Forgive me for being me
A romantic freak of the century
Just cant let the words bury
Alphabets upside down in my heart I carry...

Dont worry about me
Dont also feel sorry
I am just writing my story
Hello poetry is enough for me...

Hello stranger
Hide your anger
Love is a bliss
Let go your priciple please...

I found Love in your eyes
Say it... Say you love please try...
I love you I can't lie
You're  my heart till the day I die...

Ohh I try I try I did try...
For years it seems
Couldn't break the concrete wall
Built around your blinded heart
Your heart has been freezing too long
Your  frozen heart ...
Would hammer it hard...
but..
I'd rather it melts one day...
For true love sake..

I might be a fool to hope
The truth hurts really deep
For a hundred years to come
So it seems...
We can't be lovers
We can't be friends
We become strangers
Strangers till the end...

Hello
Are you there
Are you alright
Are you healthy
Are you thinking of me
Are you busy
Too busy perhaps
You forgot to wish me
the mother of your kids...
Well its alright honey...
Mother;s day is everyday...

Hello hello you fool
Do you still remember me
Do you still recognize this face
The one you claimed
You'd never ever
Dare to leave...

Hello hello you fool
Take a good look at me
So this is me now
Not...
The same  naive woman
You had lived with  
A decade ago...
But this is the woman
Who has been given a chance
To breathe again...
She has risen from a deep fall...
She who has learnt to live again...

Thanks to you...
You fool ..

She is the lady I met yesterday
Wearing embroidered black abaaya made in Dubai
A black veil covers most of her face...
but a pair of her mysterious looking eyes..
Has Captured my interest eversince that day

She was sitting in a a cafe all alone one fine day
Sipping black arabic coffee looking so lonely...
I stole a glance and observed her closely..
She is somewhat a mesmerizing beauty...

When she walked out that door,
she held her head down..
Not a chance for me to meet her in the eyes
But her inner beauty shines in her hidden body
A Respectable lady is a true beauty...

A pair of her eyes tells a lot of stories...
Her stories of happiness and her hidden struggles
Her eyes that smile shows a lot of love..
Her affection and her true devotion...

Her eyes reflects her tales of happiness and sorrow..
They also tell how strong she is inside
Her eyes tell how much is her fear...
To live for today and tomorrow...
Is she feeling afraid and very insecure?
That... I am not so sure...

But her gaze tells.... how brave she is..
Being a woman in abaaya in a strange town elsewhere
I know nothing of this one special lady...
But her beauty is her pair of eyes..
Her eyes that tell.....

A poem  tattooed on her body
Declaration of love
In the most sacred place
Her betrothed's name written with love...

Something I'm trying to hide
there is no way I am telling you
Day and night...my heart beats and talks with you..
my feelings is stuck bottled up inside.

My eyes are always hiding
The gleams when it sees you
What if I blurt it out?... exactly how I feel for you?
As real as it is.. pathetic..I am still hiding

The truth is I fear of the way I feel
Fear of this love...like a magician I hide
Appear to be ignorant .. only if you do feel
Everything in me I fold it safely... I keep as I hide...

I hide this feeling ...only because I know
you do feel the same, its obvious you know
been fighting these feelings, we both know..
We cant be lovers, we are friends, yes we do know..

Lets be on the pretext, that we dont know
for many reasons, must **** this love you know..
let it go.. die slowly like a melting snow...
my friendship with you like a river that flows..
a hidden treasure underneath only god knows..
too beautiful.. too worthy to ruin it by three words...I love you!

Hire me please...
hard earn money
to feed my love
Hire me!
Desperately dedicated
working even on store closing day.

You said it has never happened before
Not here, not anywhere,
Nobody has ever done it
I said, let's make a history
So no one can tell...
See, history repeats itself
Let's do it,
Crazy ? perhaps
Insane? Not quite
let's create our own history
Make it known to the world
This mystery is a great history
Your history and mine..
Us...

I plead you to hold me
Please hold me tight
I feel dizzy, I feel like falling
Dont let me fall, hold me instead
I feel so weak thinking of falling
of falling backward,
of falling forward,
I might be paralysed
I might be dead
I am too scared to fall
so i plead you again to hold me
try try dont let me fall
Let me stay
Only In your arms
hold me tight
I will not fall.

I listen to some words
verses in the holy quran...
I read some words
from pages to pages
from this beautiful holy book
I read the meanings
in the pages and chapters
The beautiful meanings,
An eye opener to my heart and soul...
A Complete stories about..
The past the present and the future
Let us all read and be told...
Let us all read and spread the message
This holy Quran is more than just words...

Dark sky the color of death
Hear the thunder shout!
A heavy storm ready to unfold

Brave is the soul of a raven
hacking the sage of the sky
to live or to die..
Hopeful, they gather around the tree
Pleading the storm to protect their home

Cruel angry storm
Raven's love is torn apart
Home sweet home is gone..

They speak of peace and stability
while  vacationing in a dreamland      
reality hurts
sweet words are lies
when actions speak the loudest
   the truth will prevail
    honesty is gold

Hope is lost
Misplaced, perhaps?
Keep looking
You'll find it
right where you left it..
Keep searching....

How could you not see me?
When i stand out in the crowd..

How could you not notice me?
When only your name i shout?

How could you avoid me?
When I am the one who made you proud?

How could you?

What a simple hug
could mean to a child
as young as I minute year old..
Perhaps could never be described..

crying out loud for the first time
going through the horror at labor..
scared and cold... almost freezing
unfamiliar sounds of the outside world
could be so terrifying
could be so threatening...
mommy's hug could mean so much
for this tiny bundle of joy...
the sense of security...
the power of love in those hugs..

and a hug could erase the fear
from a child going to school for the first time...
mommy's warm hug, daddy's sweet kiss
and the teacher's welcome hug..
the feeling of being safe and secure...
lies in the warmest honest hug...

for a lover far apart...
a hug could simply mean...
I hope you live in my arms forever..
perhaps it could also define
your world is here...

the feeling of emptiness, loneliness
fear, stress, worry, doubts...
can simply be vanished
simply by hugging one another
the strong love ties
translated by those sweet hugs...

Perhaps I hurt you bad yesterday
Perhaps I've hurt you a little today
Perhaps I 'll hurt you again tomorrow
Perhaps you are feeling hurt... now
... again

Perhaps you are just fine..
Perhaps you are not even hurt
Perhaps you don't care at all
Perhaps you are dancing with joy

Perhaps I have been hurt instead
Perhaps I have been fooled again
Perhaps...
Repeatedly...