Her soul was like a mirror
with no reflection
the purpose of existing
was lost in the shadows
of her soul

Her eyes were like a rainstorm
drops would continue to fall
sometimes she would be like rain
a deluge of liquid pain
(overwhelming every part of her)

I wish I could give her a mirror
and eyes that make her see,
that even though she's hurting now
there's so much more she can be

(l.p*)

I have to stop caring
I have to pull myself away
From this painful infliction
But first i have to stop loving
Stop the memories
Stop wanting him
Its just so hard
To be loved one day
And the next day
Feel like nothing
But the dirt swept under the rug.

I told myself
And promised you
I wouldnt hurt myself
And yet I do everyday
When i wake up
And face reality.

I was always so mean to you
Always so harsh
Still you stayed

I never complimented you
Never seemed to care
Still you stayed

When I told you I was thankful
For your kindness
Still you stayed

When I finally held your hand
And spoke softly
Still you stayed

And so I began to wonder
Just what would It take
For you to run away

I was on my own for a long time
I was happy during that time
I was pure and just happy with myself
One day I decided that girl was no fun
One day I woke up and wanted change
I wished with all my heart to be like everyone else
I changed to be like the group I grew to know
I wished harder ….
With each day I started to notice my change
One day I woke up and got what I wanted

I’m no longer on my own
I’m forced loved
I was forced to love
 I’m no longer on my own
I’m no longer happy
I’m no longer pure
I’d be careful what you wish for
One day you will wish you stayed that happy person
You slowly feel stolen from reality
Become trapped
Wings clipped
So you can’t fly away
You wish someone would save you from yourself
You lose hope that no one else is there for you
Because that’s how he will make you feel
Treat you right, brainwash you
You became a secret of his life and your own
You become hidden
You keep more secrets each day
You become a lie
Each day you wish you would leave, but as soon as you get to the door
You know there’s no exit
The child you knew is now a grown girl by choice
Your whole world is messed up
You feel ashamed everyday
Forced love
Wanting freedom from everything
Just for it to happen again
One day you’ll regain strength and walk out the door
One day you’ll wake up happy
One day you’ll be free
One day you’ll know what it feels to be free
One day you’ll know how to trust to love again
One day that door will open up again
And the walls you put up will come down
Each day will be a step closer to your old you or a new you
That one day has to start today
With each new day is a chance to set you free from your own cage
Set yourself free, love yourself and know what’s right and what’s wrong
Being on your own is scary but you’ll never feel so strong more happy
That girl that was pushed deep into the dark
Will only see a brighter day for another way