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Mostly written to free up the head space, my poetry is a jumble of thoughts that I'm just trying to pin down. I'm learning to …
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taylor kathleen Jul 2014
our faults // our stars
taylor kathleen
Jul 2014
life can deliver unexpected news
the way you handle the outcome is something to choose.
hazel grace was young when she was dealt her fate
cancer consumed her thyroid then lungs, she deteriorated at a slow rate.
she never did give up, even when hearing her mother's sobbing whispers of believing she would die
hazel regained strength enough to attend activities in the literal heart of jesus with the ball-less, guitar guy.
then one day augustus waters appeared out of the blue
blind isaac's friend without a leg and a half smile hazel viewed.
he stared at this sickly teen with compassion and curiosity in his eyes
hazel stared back wondering why anyone would fall for a person that would soon die.
augustus pulled out a cigarette and placed it in between his teeth
a metaphor that could never **** him but brought comfort beneath.
after the lesson he immediately made plans to watch a movie
he drove like a maniac but hazel thought he was pretty groovy.
the time she shared with this new soul was overwhelmingly amazing
the cancer was soon forgotten and their mutual desires were blazing.
she revealed her one kept secret- an imperial affliction
her favorite book and his the price of dawn- max mayhem's adventures became her new addiction.
he loved her natalie portman style, oxygen tank phillip and witty charm
she loved how he never let his cancer make him feel alarmed.
he was on a roller-coaster that only went up, that was his daily quote
hazel felt intrigued by this optimistic note.
she slowly relapsed when water filled her lungs
telling her dream guy to leave this grenade while their love was still young.
after a youth-cancer meeting, isaac grabbed monica's ***** and repeated two syllables to this pretentous ****
and when hazel and augustus listened to "always"- he knew he could never let his new soulmate run.
monica ditched isaac when hearing he would lose his sight
augustus let his best friend break his existentially-fraught free throw trophies and throw eggs at her car with all his pain and might.
phone calls/texts quickly showed "okay" was hazel and augustus' term
this was a word that portrayed their love could always be reaffirmed.
a swing set in hazel's backyard soon brings her to tears
augustus helps her give it to a new family to use for many years.
they fell in love with the way you fall asleep, slowly then all at once
their love grew unbreakable in those shortly shared months.
although augustus knew the world was not a wish-granting factory
he had a plan that he believed hazel would think satisfactory
hazel's dying wish was used in disney, augustus ashamed but still kept his for the perfect time
to see author peter van houten was a dream for hazel and he made it come true- they would see him in amsterdam while still in their prime.
a night in amsterdam hazel will never forget: drinking star-infused champagne and eating decadent food with a boy who wore a suit for the dead
later they shared intimacy and hazel grace left a diagram for her love- augustus was no longer a ****** with one leg and he chuckled at what she said.
the next day they went to see the genius van houten and hazel dressed like ana trying to contain her emotions
turns out he was simply a rude drunk and after calling him "******-pants" they stormed out but the ****'s stewardess came with a kind notion.
she took them both to the house of anne frank
sharing a kiss words cannot describe, they left and gave thanks.
before leaving back to the states, hazel could tell augustus holds back
he finally states the cancer lit his body like a christmas tree and hazel's heart felt attacked.
back in indiana she cares for her dying lover
she finds him trying to buy cigs and infected from his disease, he was trying so hard to cover.
augustus knows he is going to die so he asks isaac and hazel to meet him in the literal heart of jesus, each with a eulogy
he wants to attend his own funeral, hearing isaac crack jokes and hazel thanking him for their little infinity was stated so beautifully.
a few weeks later augustus dies
no energy for living, hazel cannot remove the tears from her eyes.
she did not share her heart-felt letter at his funeral because she wanted their love to remain within each other's hearts
she dictated kind words then was greeted by van houten, finding out his daughter was ana and died from cancer, drinking eased the fact that they would always be apart.
isaac relinquished to hazel that augustus wrote to her before his time ended
van houten e-mailed his writing and her heart was truly mended.
reading his ideology that he liked his choices of who hurt him and he wondered if she did too
taking in this precious letter hazel whipered, "i do augustus, i do".
the way you handle the outcome is something to choose.
hazel grace was young when she was dealt her fate
cancer consumed her thyroid then lungs, she deteriorated at a slow rate.
she never did give up, even when hearing her mother's sobbing whispers of believing she would die
hazel regained strength enough to attend activities in the literal heart of jesus with the ball-less, guitar guy.
then one day augustus waters appeared out of the blue
blind isaac's friend without a leg and a half smile hazel viewed.
he stared at this sickly teen with compassion and curiosity in his eyes
hazel stared back wondering why anyone would fall for a person that would soon die.
augustus pulled out a cigarette and placed it in between his teeth
a metaphor that could never **** him but brought comfort beneath.
after the lesson he immediately made plans to watch a movie
he drove like a maniac but hazel thought he was pretty groovy.
the time she shared with this new soul was overwhelmingly amazing
the cancer was soon forgotten and their mutual desires were blazing.
she revealed her one kept secret- an imperial affliction
her favorite book and his the price of dawn- max mayhem's adventures became her new addiction.
he loved her natalie portman style, oxygen tank phillip and witty charm
she loved how he never let his cancer make him feel alarmed.
he was on a roller-coaster that only went up, that was his daily quote
hazel felt intrigued by this optimistic note.
she slowly relapsed when water filled her lungs
telling her dream guy to leave this grenade while their love was still young.
after a youth-cancer meeting, isaac grabbed monica's ***** and repeated two syllables to this pretentous ****
and when hazel and augustus listened to "always"- he knew he could never let his new soulmate run.
monica ditched isaac when hearing he would lose his sight
augustus let his best friend break his existentially-fraught free throw trophies and throw eggs at her car with all his pain and might.
phone calls/texts quickly showed "okay" was hazel and augustus' term
this was a word that portrayed their love could always be reaffirmed.
a swing set in hazel's backyard soon brings her to tears
augustus helps her give it to a new family to use for many years.
they fell in love with the way you fall asleep, slowly then all at once
their love grew unbreakable in those shortly shared months.
although augustus knew the world was not a wish-granting factory
he had a plan that he believed hazel would think satisfactory
hazel's dying wish was used in disney, augustus ashamed but still kept his for the perfect time
to see author peter van houten was a dream for hazel and he made it come true- they would see him in amsterdam while still in their prime.
a night in amsterdam hazel will never forget: drinking star-infused champagne and eating decadent food with a boy who wore a suit for the dead
later they shared intimacy and hazel grace left a diagram for her love- augustus was no longer a ****** with one leg and he chuckled at what she said.
the next day they went to see the genius van houten and hazel dressed like ana trying to contain her emotions
turns out he was simply a rude drunk and after calling him "******-pants" they stormed out but the ****'s stewardess came with a kind notion.
she took them both to the house of anne frank
sharing a kiss words cannot describe, they left and gave thanks.
before leaving back to the states, hazel could tell augustus holds back
he finally states the cancer lit his body like a christmas tree and hazel's heart felt attacked.
back in indiana she cares for her dying lover
she finds him trying to buy cigs and infected from his disease, he was trying so hard to cover.
augustus knows he is going to die so he asks isaac and hazel to meet him in the literal heart of jesus, each with a eulogy
he wants to attend his own funeral, hearing isaac crack jokes and hazel thanking him for their little infinity was stated so beautifully.
a few weeks later augustus dies
no energy for living, hazel cannot remove the tears from her eyes.
she did not share her heart-felt letter at his funeral because she wanted their love to remain within each other's hearts
she dictated kind words then was greeted by van houten, finding out his daughter was ana and died from cancer, drinking eased the fact that they would always be apart.
isaac relinquished to hazel that augustus wrote to her before his time ended
van houten e-mailed his writing and her heart was truly mended.
reading his ideology that he liked his choices of who hurt him and he wondered if she did too
taking in this precious letter hazel whipered, "i do augustus, i do".
#tfios #poetry #summerbook #hazelgrace #augustuswaters #truelove
Nekhbet Hermit Sep 2019
Hazel
Nekhbet Hermit
Sep 2019
I named her Hazel, after a tree, or a nut, or eyes I had yet to see. It's ironic now. Children run up to ask, "what color are Hazel's eyes? " "well they're Hazel". Her personal color, something special and all on its own. In truth hazel is just a color, just a tree known for overpriced nuts that taste good in chocolate. But I wasn't worried of any of that. I was searching for a feeling. Hazel. Warm as a breezy summer day. Hazel, as comforting as a spot by the fireplace in winter. Hazel, with a bright smile who waves at all the strangers who forgot that a new friend is just a "hi my name is.." away, "Hazel."
Old women always smile and say, "that was my aunts name"... "you don't hear that name much anymore".
Sentimental and nostalgic, I wonder where that name takes them.
For me, it just feels like home.
Old women always smile and say, "that was my aunts name"... "you don't hear that name much anymore".
Sentimental and nostalgic, I wonder where that name takes them.
For me, it just feels like home.
Chauncey
May 2014
Once upon a time, not so long ago, there was a boy who say and read all day and all night. That's all he would do in his spare time, read, read read. Now, this boy wasn't hard to find in a crowd due to his brilliant blond hair and his misty blue-green eyes which seemed to be as if fog had rolled into a swamp and created a beautiful tranquility. This boy, was made fun of for reading, for not knowing things, even for having glasses. They called him things like "******", "four eyes", "stupid". These words hurt the boy more than anything he could ever imagine. So he buried himself deeper in books. He wandered down the halls of Hogwarts from Harry Potter, and slept in the cabins at Camp-Halfblood from Percy Jackson. He watched on as tributes killed each other in The Hunger Games, and flew with the flock in Maximum Ride. But one day, something happened to this misty eyed boy. He moved schools, with new faces and new insults. Except, the misty-eyed boy was never called names, never made fun of. He was accepted, people talked to him without calling him a name. And he started to respond. Slowly, he emerged from the pages of the books he had been buried beneath. When he emerged, something caught his eye. A beautiful girl, one with auburn hair and hazel eyes that shone like the full moon on a clear night. She made him feel happier than he had ever felt, and the names that had clung to this poor boy fell off. This misty-eyed boy decided one day to give his heart to this hazel eyed girl. And that's when something amazing happened, she gave him hers in return. And they were happy...for the time being. As the boy began to talk more and more, he started to read less and less. He went online and made friends from all over the world. He indirectly hurt this hazel eyed girl, and she started to take her heart back. That misty eyed boy tried his best to convince her that he was the right one to hold onto it, but she gave it over to somebody she had met online. The misty-eyed boy was devastated, he began to do the one thing he had wanted to do all his life. He wrote. He wrote and when he did the world seemed to stop, nothing mattered anymore, there was no hazel eyed girl, only him and his emotions. And the boy was happy. The boy wrote and wrote and wrote, stealing glances at the hazel eyed girl whenever he could, smiling slightly as he remembered all the fun that they had had together. One day, the girl gave the boy her heart again, and he felt that feeling that he had felt only once before in his life. The misty-eyed boy was even happier. And they stayed like this, but not even a year later, the hazel-eyed girl started to take her heart back. She turned to another boy, one who's blond hair was shorter and his eyes were a deep blue like the sea. He charmed her with his kindness and his grace, and when the misty-eyed boy complained, the hazel eyed girl and the sea blue eyed boy lashed out at him. And the boy was sad again. He wrote, but this time, he could not forget about that hazel eyed girl. He felt the pain envelop him and consume him. He gave up multiple times but couldn't surrender because he knew if he did he would hurt those who loved him. Before you give all of your sympathy towards this little misty eyed boy, you must know this. He too, had let his demons out. Twice in this story did he make that hazel eyed girl cry, and cut and give up. He said things that made her feel horrible about herself, he did the things he promised he would never do. He became a monster. But that ended as quickly as it arose, and the boy felt horrible. He sat in his room, crying because he knew that that girl had scars because of him. And that little misty-eyed boy sat and wondered, what would have happened if he had just stayed buried.