1 The other day I saw a picture of you. Shirt buttoned up to your throat, Pants cutting off the blood circulation in your pelvis, Shoes shining brighter than the north star, And a smile being pulled across your cheeks Like an archer pulling a bow string. I smiled back at my computer screen.
2 I’ve listened to this album at least 30 times. I own three versions of it. UK deluxe, US deluxe, Target Deluxe. Everything about you is deluxe. Your eyes, your voice, your breath As it passes through the microphone and into my ears.
3 I believe in fate But not so much in destiny. I don’t scream at my reflection anymore And I’m described as independent. For the most part. I’m a pretty trustworthy person And I promise I’m not that desperate.
4 The music ripples through my veins As I whip my curls at the mirror. The hairbrush pressed against my mouth And I repeat the lyrics that roll past your lips so smoothly.
5 I can almost feel your arms Wrap around my waist before I go to sleep. I had a dream You and I were together And you were happy And I was happy And everyone was happy. But I know if my dream became reality No one would be happy. Jealousy would taint the spit on other girls’ tongues And the distance between New Jersey and Australia is too much. Even for me.
5 I can almost feel your arms Wrap around my waist before I got to sleep.
5 I can almost feel you.
5 We have the same eye color.
6 We have the same hair color.
7 I am just an insecure girl. You are taking over the world. You are stepping in the soil of every state. And you won’t look at me Longer for three seconds in the New York City heat.
8 I never thought I would be one of those girls. One of those girls Who latch onto a boy’s identity, Not knowing his soul But knowing his spirit. I’ve seen you three times. You don’t even realize. I try too hard and I’m convinced you notice this.
9 You are nine months older than me. In your eyes I am just a baby. My cocoon of pictures of you is the womb I am being baked in. You won’t follow me back on twitter.
10 You are just my celebrity crush But you have such an impact on me. Go back home. Let me rest. Go back to bed. I’ll have that dream again And I won’t speak of it And no one has to know of this Pathetic excuse for love I carry in me like a dead fetus.
10 You are just my celebrity crush. It was never supposed to go this far.