It’s crazy

Crazy how someone can care so deeply about you
But they can’t help from hurting you
Betrayal at its finest is what it is


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Because I want him here to be my rock
And I want to trust him again but I’m still stuck

Stuck on how he chose up
Stuck on how he switched up
Stuck on that feeling I had deep in my heart
Stuck on the memory that still tears me apart


I can’t forget no matter how much I try
things will never be the same
My trust is one thing he can never fully regain


Playing myself like a fool is one thing I cannot do
No matter how much he claims to have switched the way he moves


When he looks into my eyes he sees the pain
That very same pain I felt when everything changed
when I look in his eyes I see adorement
but still and yet I can’t see us making this commitment

He is mine...Though I doubt this to be fully true
And I long to be his but will we see this through


When will I heal?
When will I forgive?


Will I ever find more love for him ...to give?