with this pencil i hold in my hand
i will sketch and i will write
i will do the things to cope
because i lost you
a week ago yesterday

but not long after i begin to draw
the pictures will remind me of you
the tears will fall and scatter
and i will lose myself
yet again

because you took me
which was a piece of pottery
and you pried off the glued down lid
you opened me up
told me what love was
and then you left me

i had a simple thought
of a blade across my skin
the thing i long for
a thing i don't need
but the urge is so strong
and the feeling lingers on my skin
so tell me
how do i survive without this?

What happened to chivalry, integrity, and respect? What about common curtesy, empathy, and sympathy? What happened with trust? It seems as if none of these exist in todays world. I want world peace. But it takes more than a single person to start the end of war; an end to threats. We must stand together to end this world wide discrimination. Martin Luther King Jr ended Racial Injustice; Abraham Lincoln set slaves free; George Washington brought freedom to the U.S., He formed this country with John Adams, Thomas Jefferson, James Madison, Alexander Hamilton, James Monroe, and Benjamin Franklin. Rosa Parks stood up to end the Racial Inequalities. And I say, that if they can do it, we can do it. We are the generation to make a change. So lets change it.

Can you see the fire within her eyes? Can you see it hollowing her innocent soul? She call out towards her father saying, “We will watch the flames grow high within my soul. We will watch it grow tall for the last time. Because this is the desolation of the final time. And I can not take this much longer, for the pain decides to linger within my dreaded soul.”

i can’t speak these words, but i can write them.


all is dead,
all is gone.
she was the air
inside my lungs.
now I’m paralyzed,
staring up in the night,
and nothing i could right
could help you understand *my life

I've lost you

you've lost me

I'm gone

and your to see

that i'll be

soon to leave

and all i can say

is that I'm FOREVER sorry

AND your ALWAYS to be.

I stepped out into the cold

A cigarette pinched between my ****** lips

I stepped out into the cold

As a shiver went down my spine

And a tear down my face

And a soft cloud of smoke

Drifting lightly above my head

A thought of a razor

And a thought of skin

The two together a tapestry yet to begin

And all I can think about

...

Is *you

For the first time tonight, I'll bleed myself dry

For the first time today, I gave my soul away

I walked outside, skies pouring out their tears

I walked inside, flashbacks from the years


You were just too out of reach

From this life that I can't reach

But your heart, it's what I seek

I gave you mine, but you let it sink

into a river, so to speak

then you left me behind

like I've been bled dry


you sunk away

drowning in the ocean

i sat thinking

'what do i do?'

i was clueless

my light body

couldn't sink to get you

what do i do?

what do i do?


how do you save someone who's drowning?

how do you bring them back to shore?

how do you show them life, in the darkest of times?

how can i save her?

the one i adore.

I was left behind

Before my time

In the world

That's not my kind

Exploring the wonders

Of a made up world

came to sense

It's beautifully cruel

Your eyes are red
The truth is said
Your making death threats
So she won't let you go
So she won't let you go

Savoir,
Your gonna need a savoir,
Save yourself from heartache,
But **** yourself later,
Your gonna need a favour,
Like the taste of flavour,
Save yourself from heartache,
But **** yourself later
But **** yourself later

Your talk is cheap,
Your leaving me
Why can't you see
What we could be
What we could be

Savoir,
Your gonna need a savoir
Save yourself from heartache,
But **** yourself later,
Your gonna need a favour,
Like the taste of flavour,
Save yourself from heart ache
But **** yourself later
But **** yourself later

Do you remember

When i was

Strong and brave

Just as a thief



Do you remember

When i believed

So take me back

To where i wasn't weak



Take me to

To the streets

Teach me to be strong

And to get through the week



Do you remember

When i could see

When i could be

The girl I'm supposed to be



Take me

To the streets

Teach me to be strong

And to get through the week



Do you remember

When i wasn't

In the darkest place

I could ever be



What happened

To the days

When i was unafraid

Just as a thief?

Clinging to my back,
The demons that haunt me
Calling my name
Telling me to come

“It’ll just take a flick,
Just a jump,
Come with us
You’ll forever be loved”

Your telling me
“Don’t you dare go”
But the deed
Is so close to done

Do you know
I’m tired of being
So alone
So just let me go

What am I supposed to do
The news came so soon
The truth came out
And there ain't no doubt
Mother,
That your slowly dying
Slowly wasting away
Mother,
You hid the truth
And I shouldn't know
But Mother,
What will I do?
If I lose you
Mother,
I'll have nowhere to go
And I'll waste away too
But Mother,
Why didn't you tell me?

You have my lips stitched together
And my soul withering away
Do you not understand, nor see
The pain coursing throw my veins

I'm sitting, keeping my peace
Keeping my mask o'er my face
I'm laughing, smiling even
And no one can see

I'm suffering slowly
Within your abusive grasp
Your childish one too
It grows bigger each day

The ground around her

Slowly coloring in white

Her sweats

Are slowly becoming cold

Her tears

Feel as if they are freezing

Before they hit the ground

The cold like spears

Piercing her skin

Taking away the warmth

She lays down

And curls up in the snow

The trees surrounding her

Her limbs turning purple

With speckles of amber

The snow dancing down onto

Her limp body

Short and slow breathes escaping her mouth

Her body covering in white

slowly letting her last breath out

she's one with peace