I lay alone in bed
Thinking of everything you said
And it makes me so sick
That you gave up that quick

Fell for someone who
Doesn't think things through
Now I'm paying for it
With my silver, I slit
My skin in two
Just like when you
Grabbed the sharp knife
And ended my life

My heart is broken
But the lust is still there
I hate you so much
But I love you and care
About you and your health
Your disgusting self
You kept me so strong
For so **** long
It just hurts that you moved on
It feels so wrong

They say that love is one of the best things that could possibly happen to you. I on the other hand disagree. I think it may possibly be the worst thing alive. It ruins us. It makes us crave something we can't have. It tears us apart. It breaks our hearts.

All I know is that I once loved.
All I know is that I still love...still love the same person.
The person I hurt the most, and crave back so much. My other half.
I miss the way he held me, the way he made me feel special.
I miss the good and bad moments.
And yet..I know that he is not mine.
That..that is what hurts the most. That he is someone else's now and no longer mine.
I always wonder "what if..". But then I remember all the little things and the big things that ruined it all.
Regrets...so many regrets.

And now..all I'm left with is the memory of him and the hope that maybe, one day I'll get a second chance from him..
Because I swear to god I won't **** up again. Not if my life depends on it.

Crimson of the imprinted struggle
of wings that couldn't fly away
remnants of a ****** scuffle
evidence of the ones who pay

on the ice, above the concrete
terror is in the melting snow
soon to be under gone feet
gone forever from what we know

****** trail of the past fallen
a victims death is seen in red
on a winter's day so sullen
****** snow angels of the dead

I understand that what I did was a little unorthodox, to say the least.
But whenever I looked into your eyes and saw all the pain bottled inside
The only thing I would allow myself to do, day in and day out, was try and fill those eyes with happiness
And I did
It's too bad I no longer can
If I had it my way
I'd make you happy
Every day

advice
wise words
feel much more like
talking down
than heping