"They're just doing it for attention."
So?
Give them attention then.
If someone is starving themselves,
or cutting themselves,
or hurting themselves in any other way,
Just so someone will notice,
Just to see if someone cares.
Then give them some ******* attention.

I've always had this sense of entitlement.
This thought that I deserved to have certain things.
After all I always learned if you work hard you get results.

That is sometimes true.
And it's good to work hard.
But you shouldn't depend on it as truth.

Because one day,
You're going to be waiting for your acceptance letter.
And instead get an email saying you didn't get the appointment.
And if you're used to getting what you want.
That's going to hurt.

Happiness is boring.

Obviously you like it if you're the happy one.
But it's boring to witness.

No one watches tv shows about happy people.
No one writes sonnets about how happy someone is.

Everyone says their goal is to be happy, but that's not true.
Power, money, love; sure.
But no one really sets happiness as a goal.

If you want to be happy, just be happy.
Put down what you're doing and smile.
Go do your favorite thing.

But you can't.
Why?
Because you're doing something important right now.
Like school or work.
For what?
Money and power.
Not happiness.

It's hard not to settle.

You would think it would be easy.
But when the other option
Is to get nothing
It's hard not to settle.

When you want love
Or something like that
It's hard to not just go with someone you know has a crush on you
Even if you don't have feelings for them.
At least you'd get to date someone.

When you're feeling lonely
It's hard to not call up the really cute guy
Who treats you like ****.
Because at least he's cute?

It's hard to wait for the perfect thing.
Because the thing is
You're never really sure it will come.

They're a tricky thing.
You have your own.
And you have other peoples'.
And then you have your parents'.

It's funny, I've never felt burdened with my parents'.
I usually manage to fulfill theirs.
It's my own that I can't reach.

It is I who expects higher scores.
I want to do better.
Because I know my potential.
And I know I'm not fulfilling it.

I'm a pretty girl.
But I don't deserve to be.

I eat foods that are horrible for my skin.
And my body.
I don't wear sunscreen.
I don't exercise unless I have to.
But despite all my efforts I'm still fairly pretty.

I'm a pretty girl.
But I don't know how to deal with it.

I feel uncomfortable when people stare at me.
I feel horrible when guys I don't like like me.
I wear shorts without worrying that it will be distracting.
I don't have much confidence.
I'm extremely surprised when boys like me back.
But it all still happens.

I'm a pretty girl.
But I don't act like one.

I usually have a grumpy look on my face.
I don't introduce myself to strangers.
I don't like most people.
I play loud music.
I'm sarcastic.

In short

I'm a pretty girl.
But not a very nice one.