it covers my existence
its all over the things that have come with in distance
in this instance no soap can wash this  filth off
it lingerers like the aids that should run through my veins
so how long until this feeling is gone
please help me god, i ask for your forgiveness
im ashed to admit the sins i've committed
they are a part of my life never to be omitted
so i pray help me lord make this part of my existence
a part that i can learn to live with

ya deje mis abusos
me han odiadio por tanto tiempo
y haora respiro
que rico se siente tener esta vida con tanta hermosura

ya no mas traversuras
adonde yo siempre benia primero
mi amor al abuso del mi  alma
que locura, que locura, pero ya no mas, ya no mas
nuca mas dejara que mi alma  surfa gracias a mis demonios
gracias mi amor por todavia dejar me regresar a tu alma
ya regresas mi alma, con tu luz,  illuminas mi allergria
siempre te quiera, con todo que me de esta dia

tyring to find someone to take me far away
to help me enjoy the day
when i reality i should stay home and meditate
im out of wack
***** all lose
yearning to escape
to find another place thats not my place
but better than being this way
taking shortcuts knowing ill pay for it in the near future
how long can i play this game before i completely lose my **** slit my wrists as the new way to play
jump in front of a train in order to seize the day
fukkkkk

alone n my body in this wilderness
how people get the best of me
trying to incorporate this yoga in to every day
girls seem to ******* me
i love them
i get lost
not sure where to escape these so i just follow
trying to maintain this yogi state of mind
its so difficult with alll this dimes'
so i declare to just let me be
natural without a state of happpy
with out a state of sadness
just in a state of oneness where everything is all it can be

meditating under a glowing orange sky
as the morning sun comes arise
naturally high from this meditative state of mind reaching a caressing every innered of my Cries.
with my eyes fixed on the sky
I can feel the warm whispering  breeze  subtly caressing my cheek
Depp brsathes in  making my body thump gently .
down to my tranquil heart beat.
im in heaven no need to speak
all thanks to my beautiful yoga instructor *Emily

I watch people in the world
Throw away their lives lusting after things,
Never able to satisfy their desires,
Falling into deeper despair
And torturing themselves.
Even if they get what they want
How long will they be able to enjoy it?
For one heavenly pleasure
They suffer ten torments of hell,
Binding themselves more firmly to the grindstone.
Such people are like monkeys
Frantically grasping for the moon in the water
And then falling into a whirlpool.
How endlessly those caught up in the floating world suffer.
Despite myself, I fret over them all night
And cannot staunch my flow of tears.