taken back by this inner ***** when i get high
cuz i cant work up the courage to smile
look you in the eye, and say hi
i look down and stare at my screen
pretending not to notice and focus on doing certain things
however all that's in focus is the increasing sound of you getting closer
i hold on tight and try not lose my composure
parlayed, with a stress disorder.
the root cause is probably this *******,
that ego
that i wont let go
unnoticed.
by being so reclusive
you noticed
im sorry peaches and oranges

can you tolerate me
without saying anything?

good, cuz then maybe
we should speak

as i try and craft my speech i stumble
as it comes out of my mouth i mumble
i fear rejection for i do not think very highly of my self
relatively humble.
oh how nice it'd be to get this girl to smile and fall and tumble
in love. her curly hair
id adore her blue eyes and say i never stop admiring.
hair so pretty,i mean beautiful
prettiful

when nobody says hello
make a smiley face on my pant leg above my knee
its looks at me and smiles
it makes me sad but at least its better than nothing
then i cheer up and go around singing
then finally somebody sees me
and they already know
hello :)

clear minded
being whole
with nothing more
i am more

meditating under a glowing orange sky
as the morning sun comes arise
naturally high from this meditative state of mind reaching a caressing every innered of my Cries.
with my eyes fixed on the sky
I can feel the warm whispering  breeze  subtly caressing my cheek
Depp brsathes in  making my body thump gently .
down to my tranquil heart beat.
im in heaven no need to speak
all thanks to my beautiful yoga instructor *Emily

grass breathing
im breathing in slowly

soft and gentle to the lungs
i listen to the birds whistleing songs

morning dew with a fog of clarity
oh the sweet joys life has given me

DARK CIRCLES  under my eyes
weary and TIRED
looks like i got high
in reality ive been ******* with tears in my eyes...
your turn

my turn? my eyes burn as well
The demons of hell have turned my back into furniture
each vertebrae is in pain for heavens sake
My own wake will be replaced by someone more important
and my funeral will be postponed due to rain


comth with your *** sith
its the way of the conservative
so shallow, they may as well be illiterate to human sake
the writing on the walls aching for some pertinence
everyone sees the destruction, the wretched police enforcing it
helpless we die in our filthy wealth
until we learn to save our selves
luxurious items are wicked in the way of souls as prizes
what’s the cost of a couple ***** boys from Africa?
just a sheckle over a diamond why not? im buyin it


****** men, Damning all,
To Satan. To the Demon Ruler
*** siths on tongue and lips
drip after drip on the souls of ancestors
They watch you rule, oh slavers
they watch you drool over riches
to you, these beautiful nymphs
they're doomed to be *******
they follow your lead and become what you want
blame them not
for they are a byproduct of your weakness

Innocent hypocrites, diluted of all culture
vultures infused with stimulants
so stifled we cant concentrate on whats important
high after high
going lower and lower
Now we know the new world order
our graves have been dug
now we shovel the dirt back on ourselves
sleeping better than waking up
this society is an atom bomb
and were all dying from the radiation
noise and light pollution is all we know
where did the stars go?
i need to go find home

i look for signs
but cant see outside my mind

Deep roots neither here nor there
Over-watered and scared
i Feel ill prepared
tended not to  care
peaches or pears.

Never finding my place and bound to wash away
Wandering until I find a place
unknown
A place I can call home
A place where there will be no one I used to know
So I can grow old and alone
Burn my body to ashes and smoke
There ill find hope

***** suckin the devils ****,
feels like **** with no lubricant,
so stick it in im used it.

sitting on the curb at Pete's
this time with you is truly unique
you inspire me to write and sing songs
so that you i can just dance and sing along
it hasn't been long since you and i have been friends
but i hope this friendship will never end

relax
realize
accept
live
love
eat
rest
repeat
forever
peace

police and lawyer fees
i think ill stay home and no longer get any of these
caged up but at least im free

**** on my ****
******* out in rivers like the ****** split
that was gross i shouldnt have ****** it
***** ****

ya deje mis abusos
me han odiadio por tanto tiempo
y haora respiro
que rico se siente tener esta vida con tanta hermosura

ya no mas traversuras
adonde yo siempre benia primero
mi amor al abuso del mi  alma
que locura, que locura, pero ya no mas, ya no mas
nuca mas dejara que mi alma  surfa gracias a mis demonios
gracias mi amor por todavia dejar me regresar a tu alma
ya regresas mi alma, con tu luz,  illuminas mi allergria
siempre te quiera, con todo que me de esta dia

Its lonely at this time of night
i think about the woman i wish i could have in my life
maryjane has had a hold my time
im ready to let her go now.

To explore some new territory
Alive and Awake maybe she will notice me
if not at least ill have a hold of me

no show for me tonight
im gunna stay home and walk my dog at night
i got tickets to pay
looks like we wont be having as much fun today
its okay
soon ill be out of this whole
free to rome
trainhop, hitchhike, and do much more
lay under the star and pray to god.
say thankyou for this life
and showin me whats right
i have much to learn
but heres to what well earn
by no longer geting burned

my dad said i was high
he was right
i smirked
he cried
i laughed
he died
sorry daddy

yoohoo
rich in calcium
mom's love it
and i can't get enough of it
yoohoo
how you make me smile when i feel sad
never fail to make me glad
thank you yoohoo.
kinda how i feel about you too

alone n my body in this wilderness
how people get the best of me
trying to incorporate this yoga in to every day
girls seem to ******* me
i love them
i get lost
not sure where to escape these so i just follow
trying to maintain this yogi state of mind
its so difficult with alll this dimes'
so i declare to just let me be
natural without a state of happpy
with out a state of sadness
just in a state of oneness where everything is all it can be

spit on my ****
ill lick your ****
*** real quick
youll be like was that it?
ill be like ye *****
now let me go take a ****

ill pray for you, i know the devil and the ****** creeps and never stops lurking. always know it is there. look it in the face and stare. with god on your side all he can do is glare.. hold on tight i know you still care

brillante y opaca
se que no debo de comer me la vaca
compassion y indecision
quiero mis queridos amigos con mucho amor y pacion

tyring to find someone to take me far away
to help me enjoy the day
when i reality i should stay home and meditate
im out of wack
***** all lose
yearning to escape
to find another place thats not my place
but better than being this way
taking shortcuts knowing ill pay for it in the near future
how long can i play this game before i completely lose my **** slit my wrists as the new way to play
jump in front of a train in order to seize the day
fukkkkk

it covers my existence
its all over the things that have come with in distance
in this instance no soap can wash this  filth off
it lingerers like the aids that should run through my veins
so how long until this feeling is gone
please help me god, i ask for your forgiveness
im ashed to admit the sins i've committed
they are a part of my life never to be omitted
so i pray help me lord make this part of my existence
a part that i can learn to live with

take no shortcuts for we are only short cutting ourselves

the all powerful lust
of the known unknown
craving to revisit temptation
is all i seemed to know

wish i didnt
have to get in to get out
but i gotta do what i gotta do
& watch what happens

my brain is tired
i cease to exist
i drink a little wine
and think about the girl i used to miss

i do not want to sleep,
i do not want to eat.
i do not want to watch tv.

i want to smoke
i want to ****
i cannot stand this feeling when i have no one.

this life never starts
this life never ends
there is no start to this end
this life is a cycle
so cheers to living another day in this psych ward

scared to help?
people love it
so why so hesitant?
it feels good, now go do it