brinn

brinn Aug 2020

everything.

that’s what you were
to me.

you were the sun
and stars at night.
you were the moon
my guiding light.

you were the grass
and you were also the snow.
you were the path
that showed me where to go.

you were my music
and you were the air.
you were the wind
blowing through my hair.

but that’s the thing about everything.
when you left

i had nothing.

brinn Jul 2020

i’m sorry that i can’t say how i feel

it’s unfair, really.
to expect someone to read a book
without being able to open it.
to understand the characters and the plot
without reading a single word.

all this time
i thought i was helping
by keeping that book closed
and holding it out of anyone’s reach.

but i didn’t help.
now my story doesn’t have an end.

brinn Jul 2020

disappearing reflection

the thing is
when she looked in the mirror
she could see herself disappearing.
she felt her skin fading into transparency.
she saw the color drain from her eyes
and the life that once excited her,
vanish from her body.

each mirror she passed by,
more of herself was gone.
no one else seemed to notice.

until they all did.

brinn Jul 2020

what i wanted

i know you don’t care.

and really, it’s fine.
it’s what i wanted.
what i asked for.

the funny thing,
about finally getting what you want
is that most of the time

you realize you don’t want it.

brinn Jul 2020

good enough

“when will i be good enough?”

a question i’ve repeated
at least a million times in my life.

i wanted to be good enough
for someone to love me
truly
and good enough to love them back.

i wanted to be good enough
to pursue my dreams
to take chances
and actually live.

i wanted to be good enough
to not question myself everyday.
every decision.
to feel accomplished in being me.

but when you’re constantly
reminding yourself
that you are not yet good enough,

you will never be enough.

brinn May 2020

best i can do

and for you
i offer my heart
i know
it’s not much
but
it’s the best i can do

brinn May 2020

:)

it’s the kind of smile
that hurts.
you know the one,
the painful yet
unavoidable one.

that inevitable feeling.
just smile through the pain.