45 minutes ago
I was madly in love.
drawing up plans
To come spend my life with you
But that was before...
You changed that with a few words.
You told me you weren't sure.
That we should wait a while,
Think about it some more.
And in that instant.
I knew you didn't want this.
I hoped it was jitters,
and yet still i knew.
We wouldn't make an hour,
A day, a month, a year.
A lifetime like i thought.
How do you erase forever
In a swift flow of words so gently spoken?
Do i walk the paths we did together now alone?
Should i cower from places we went?
That restaurant with a wall reserved for photos to mark the passage of time.
Its so easy for you to turn your back.
Who cast the lot so i kept all the memories?
I can barely breathe as i think of the past.
I miss you already.
60 minutes after you said goodbye.
i wish i could stop my hands trembling
As i reach for my phone.
No message from you to tell me it's ok.
I scroll through your messages.
Playful you,
Serious you.
The you who cared.
I will time to stop and mourn my loss.
For with you i had eternity
And now it stretches forlorn and empty wrecking me.
My time stopped, 45 minutes ago.