there usually aren't simple connections
It's normally out of no where
It can be the way the sky looks
Or a line in my school text book
Whatever it is that brings me back
I know that it will hurt
Memories crawl inside my brain
Making a nest of their own
Sometimes it's like I've never left that night
I can feel him most days

Should I sink or should I float?
I cannot stay above
I'm going down and I cannot fight
Please save me from myself

Should I stay or should I go?
If I leave I will never know
I'd like to stay, but it will only hurt
If I go, then I will drown
Fall into the deep dark blue

I've been treading water for so long
I am so tired
My head is slipping under
I am sinking
I am drowning
Please save me from myself

I used to hide
I did not want to be found
But now you need to save me
Save me from myself

I am breathing in water now
My lungs are aching for air
Sweet air

I am so sick of this **** water
I want to be high
High off of the ground
Will you take me there?
Into the sky
Soaring and flying into the white

Sweet air with the wind in my hair

I'm afraid of what you've become,
but I'm also afraid of losing
what you had been.