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Brush the hair out of my face

let me catch you watching lovingly

with your fingers my lips trace

little things mean a lot to me
Here I am again staring at this ceiling
Glance at the clock, 11:11
Make a wish right?
*******.
Do you have any idea how many "11:11's" I've wished on since you've been gone??
Not a one has come true
Not when I'm awake anyway
Why am I laying here, thinking about you? And not just that I miss you but, every little thing we ever did together
Over thinking each word you ever muttered to the 10th degree
Am I even a passing thought?
When you sit to take a ****, do I cross your mind then? Considering that's probably the only time you have alone
Probably
Have you ever saw a car that looked like mine and wondered what it'd be like if I was really in it?
Whenever I hear that certain sound I felt your little car made, I **** in my breath and wish
There it is again
All this **** wishing, where exactly has it gotten me?
In the same bed, staring at the same ceiling thinking about you some more
****, have you ever wished you'd stayed?
Do you ever wonder if you'd just maned up and stuck or rough patch out, what we'd be like?
I mean, I'm not sure you wish for anything
You sure don't seem to have control over anything
It's like your brains made of mush and you'll just go where the wind blows, and then just follow further orders
Is it so that if you fail, you can say "well it wasn't my idea to go work there" "I didn't choose her over you, she did"
I mean how much absolute ******* can go through your mind until, you can even listen to it anymore
Seems like your tolerance level is high
You'd been lyin to me for months, tell parts of but never the full truth
I sigh, this is getting me no where
It's now 12am and I'm laying here wide eyed
Holding back screams filled with tears
Why am so stuck?
You're a liar
Even to your ****** self
I wish you'd just been honest so I coulda just left liked I planned
But, you played my weak spot to make me stay
It'd be nice if you didn't know me so ****** well
And you actually had half a clue who you are and what and who you want
**** it
That's my wish tonight
Hit the light switch
Let the dark hide my tears and bury my face in my pillow so neighbors can't hear my screams
I wish to fall asleep and not dream of you
Just grant me that one and I'll never make another wish again
In fragmented mirrors
where I used to see myself with you,
and now you become
my own reflection.
Tears can't bring us back,
and those sweetest talks
are only drowned
into memories, I nod.

In every corner of the streets
where we used to walk together
holding hands.
The spaces between my fingers
are where yours fit so perfectly
but now you're gone.

I still see your ghost
which frightens me to move forward,
I might stumble.
And it holds my tongue to say
that I've already forgotten you,
I might mumble.

When I'm with someone else,
it only reminds me of you.
Even when I close my eyes,
I could still see your ghost.
And the worst
is that I still want you to be mine,
but you said
you're already moving on.
All Rights Reserved © 2013
 Jun 2013 Rebecca Jean
AJ Salazar
“No one’s perfect until you fall in love with them”
That’s what they say
And I've fallen for a boy
Who couldn't possibly fall for me
But I fell for him anyways,
And he is perfect in my eyes
But it is useless for he won’t love me back
Quite sad, isn't it?
He must not realize that he wanders
Into my mind every so often
I have him memorized
While he barely glances my way,
And has taken over my daydreams
I had no idea what to name this at first
 Jun 2013 Rebecca Jean
AM
you have worked your way
into every crevice of my mind
even in the darkest, cobwebbed corners
you're there
but the question plagues me
am I even a fleeting thought
an ephemeral image
in your mind?
do you
ever think of me?
Angry apes arguing

Odd owls ogling

Extravagant emus eloping

Slimy slugs slithering

Wandering worms wriggling

Jaunty jays jumping

Testy tigers thundering

Grumpy giraffes grazing

All animals amazing
kids, alliteration
I DON’T WANNA LIVE

I wanna die

‘cos all I can do is cry

YOU LEFT ME

So what am I

HOW DARE YOU DIE

and leave me all alone

who am I going to talk to on the phone

who am I going to tease and squeeze

when all their trying to do is please

I’M SO MAD AT YOU

What do I do

How do I manage this

Oh God, I can still taste your kiss

Still smell your smell

Who am I going to tell

I’M SO CONFUSED

Feel so abused

God I love you so

Why’d you have to go

PLEASE COME BACK

This I can’t hack

I love you so much

I miss your touch

I’M SORRY DEAR

I didn’t mean it

I’ll try and stay strong

and hopefully it won’t be long

‘til were together again

I’LL LOVE YOU

Forever and ever

I’ll forget you never
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