How many minutes does it take for the light from the Sun to travel to Earth?
Easy, 8 minutes and 20 seconds.
What is the distance from the Earth to the Moon?
Easy, 238,900 miles exactly.
What color are her eyes?
... Something gold. A bright golden brown. The flecks show up mostly when she is in the light. Her skin glows florescent, but her eyes deepen with curiosity and an unimaginable spark illuminates within her.
...So, Brown?
I guess you could say that.
How fast does light travel?
Easy, 186,282 miles per second. Hit me with something harder.
Okay, What is her best feature?
Some would say her body and some would say her mind. But I love the thing that will never deteriorate, Her soul. Her soul is the most beautiful part about her. It is what is within her as well as what shows outside on a sunny day. It is what picks the flowers outside of her house and kisses me gently. It is who recommends music and tells me that she loves me more than I love her (even though that is false, I love her so much more) and that gives me hope in the midst of fear.
Her soul is what touches me, not her fingers. Her soul is living and breathing, not only inside of her, but inside of me as well.
...Do you really love her?
Guess you could say she's a part of me now.
Yes?
*Yes

The sudden scent of strawberries around me reminds me of you.
I had never actually tried a strawberry until you came along, and I realized they aren't so bad.
I hate missing you, because suddenly memories like this comes back to my mind.
Whenever I tried it, you smiled widely.
We were at your house and you put sugar all over it, because you loved them like that.
I remember how sweet you looked, and just how sweet you tasted.
I do not think I'll ever forget that, because every time I eat strawberries now, I am reminded.

Is it right to call you a dream?
A dream I'd never see come true?
I didn't believe in dreams,
until they came true.
California, UC Berkeley,
and someone to call mine.
But here you are--
and suddenly words cannot
seem to describe how beautiful
and how perfect I know we are
for each other.

You are a dream come true.
And I love you.

I'll be seeing you again,
Finally.
I've missed our talks and
How I can tell you things.
I'm glad I'll
Finally be seeing you
Again.

Harry Potter.
I've never written about you,
The boy who lived.
I wish you were here,
We could make some
dark magic,
And say silly spells.
We could be everything.
I could be the Hermoine to your Ron.
The scar to your Harry.
The wand to your average witch or wizard.

I just wish I could be yours.

Silly me, You're not real.
(At least not really.)

I don't think I'm
Going to be okay
Without you.

I love getting those
Sweet midnight messages.
The ones that remind me that
I do actually mean something
To anyone.
Thank you for them,
You know who you are
And
To those who come in the future,
Thank you also.
I appreciate your
Beautiful souls and
Your silly sweet smiles and
Your words of wisdom and your
Love and affection.
Thank you for being so
Wonderful and cautious with me and
So kind and sweet.
oh how sweet y'all are
*thank you from the bottom of
Not only my heart,
But my soul.

I waited for you and
I still am waiting.
The difference from then
To now is that
I have hope
In us.

i went up to you
and said "i got a
C!" and you smiled
and knew that i
was very proud.
you gave me
permission to
get closer with
your eyes and
i did.

you then smiled,
asked when my next
test was and i
answered back,
"in two weeks."
you smiled and
then we became silent.

i looked at you and
decided it was time
to tell you how i
felt.

"congrats, i heard you're
engaged. thats amazing."
and he smiled and said,
"yes, i am. its wonderful,
thank you!" and he had this
light in his eyes when he
said this to me.

i told him to have a
good day and before he
said anything, i walked
out.

i felt the need to puke and
cry and i wasn't sure of
what to do because
I'm so completely in
love with you.

im so happy for him
and i know i shouldn't
feel this way but,
i really wish he had that
same light in his eyes
when he talks to
me.

Oh Dear God,what do I do?
My heart won't stop pumping
And it's all because of you.

Oh Dear God, what do I say?
Why am I suffering?
Will I ever be okay?

Oh Dear God, if you're up there.
I can't feel the warmth you send down,
I can't feel your stare.

Oh Dear God, I'm trying to do what you say.
But my life is difficult and
I'm trying to pray.

Oh Dear God, help me please!
My heart has been open for
You to come and cease!

Oh Dear God, please **** me now.
For I am miserable here and
I will allow.

My hand
So close to yours
Yet
So far away.
I just want to
Hold them tight
For you to realize
We're meant to be
Together,
To be one.
You lay on my lap
Unintentionally of course
At least in your mind.
But to me it means
More than life.
More than anything.

We chose to act this way.
like children playing a game or
like two lovers who cant be.
we chose to ignore each other
and pretend to not know
each others secrets.
why did i let you in?
Itd be so much easier
for the both of us if
i were dead.

Fill them up with love
and then leave.

Demi Lovato
And 2 fingers inside
Wanted to scream
"oooohhh babyyyy"
Late for school
Smell like *** and
Coconuts
Our 7 month anniversary
Is definitely one to remember.

I
wish to
be
Invisible.

you're not mine and
now you'll never be
due to the fact that
you're happily
engaged.

i had hope for the
longest and
even though this
thought has entered
my mind before,
i always thought that
id be the one who you
said your vows
to.

its a good thing though.
as long as you're happy,
i am.

i just want the best for you.

even if it leaves me
completely
and utterly
depressed.

All I remember was waking up with
my nose next to yours
and our breath in sync
like we were
one.

he is the calm before the storm
and he is the eye of a hurricane.
while rushing winds roar all around me,
he is what keeps me steady and
on my feet amongst the
ferocious times around.
he is the sweet calmness
and you can tell by
the way his fingers
grab my sides sweetly
and his mouth travels d
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to places undiscovered
that he knows how to
appreciate and touch a
woman's body.

you kissed with such a mix of
tenderness and hunger that it
made me wonder how someone so
strong could suddenly be so
vulnerable and gentle.

and i know i said yes,
but i'm starting to think that
no would've been the correct answer.

May thunder roll and
Lightning strike;
I'll never give up
On you.

There were numbers in our equation and
The numbers were always slightly off but
Surely I had been right,
And put the 1 after the =
And then put 1 + 1 before it, right?
It was 1 + 1 = 1
But you changed it.
Your body changed,
You mind changed,
Your heart changed
And put a 2 behind the =
Which made us into
1 + 1 = 2.
We were one, rhymic, pulchritudinous,
Believed to be the one who lasted forever
Even despite our inability to always add up.
But at the end of everyday,
My equations stayed the same
1 + 1 = 1.
But to you, mine was never right.

Everything reminds me of you.
From the toothbrush with an "L" written with sharpie next to mine.
To the drawings that are by you on my wall.
The pictures of us around my room.
The little lion I bought when we went thrift store shopping.
From the diffuser I always tried to keep out for you when you came over.
To the pillow that I always left out of your side of the bed.
And the paintings you've made for me hanging up just under the fake record that you used to ask me to Homecoming this year.
From the many sticks of incense that I haven't burned, but I kept because they made me feel like you were here.
To the records you let me borrow, and now won't take back.
The nail polish you gave me that I wear on my fingers, which everyone says looks amazing on me, but I feel like it's nothing out you.
From the pens you love that I bought for you.
To the silly Sherlock Valentines from this year and last year.
The many pictures on my phone, that are mostly of you.
From the my blanket from my childhood that still smells of you.
To the many calls we've shared, I can't bear to delete that history.
But it would seem that all of our history is slowly deleteing,
Like an old computer whose hard drive is becoming too old and unable to hold all of its files anymore.
Is regaining love as easy as it would seem in the movies?
Hollywood baffles me and makes me believe that I may be able to get you back.
I hope Hollywood is right, because I miss you terribly.
Everything reminds me of you.

something about you
your lips met mine
and I know you could feel my
breath
hot and ready
panting and aching
I could feel the need
inside of me
I didn't know what to do
I would've kept kissing
but my lips couldn't
I felt like I was
doing something wrong-
tongue doesn't belong there
my lip hung, waiting for some
type of control
that I know you won't give me.
I still wanted to feel you
your heartbeat was quick
everything felt so right
your lips on my neck
the wetness in between my
thighs
my silent laughs
because I couldn't believe any
of this was happening to me-
let alone me being okay with it.
I hate being touched
by foreign fingers
it brings up memories
of him making my hands
go into places I'll never
speak of.

but, what is it about you?
is it thy lips
that make me quiver?
is it your eyes
that hypnotize me
every time i see them?
is it your heart
and the song that sings just
for me?
or is it your soul
the one I'll never ever
compare to.

you give sweet kisses and
have the most beautiful
features I have ever
laid my eyes upon,
how are you mine?

Not sure if I'm
Depressed or not but
I am certain that I'm
Not happy.

kissing you is so beautiful.

i wont see you all summer.
i have your number but
i wont use it.
i miss you already.

She held me and
I held her.
Sometimes one of us would cry or
sometimes we'd fall asleep.
I'd mostly fall asleep to the
Sweet sound of her rhymic
Breath or
Her short but surely
sweet yawns.
I'm still wondering--
Am I the only friend that
she's let hold her
at night?

It just seems funny because
None of her other friends seem like the
Type who would do that
And I even asked one and they
looked at me like I was
crazy.

So, I guess my question is--
Why did she let me
hold her at night?
And why did she bother
To hold me back?
Is it just a special bond or
was it something more?

I guess I'm still hoping that
She mean't what she said when
she said she
Might feel the same
Way.

he wants to discuss the
universe so
im pretty
stoked.

i want to deconstruct everything i have always known about myself in hopes that ill find something worth saving

and what is it like, dear?
being so in love,
being so convinced that she is all you desire,
that i am not enough to even be close to you anymore?

I got maybe two or
Three hours of sleep.

But somehow I'm running on
You.

She's gone.
That girl you once knew.
With the sparkle in her
Eyes as she talked about
The silliest of things?
She's gone.
Too busy with schoolwork to
Take a moment and
Remember the good things
In life.
But, then again,
Those were taken from
Her a long time
Ago.

My teacher said,
"If you don't have a soul,
You're an animal because
They
Don't
Feel."
Well, I guess that's
Really what I
Am.
Since I don't feel,
I don't have a soul.

Therefore,
I'm an Animal.

I miss you Dad.
I guess I'm lucky;
At least I have a
Dad.
But do I?
You send me money,
Expecting that
It's all I need.
But when I check the mail,
I don't want to see
Money;
I want to see
you.

I saw what I wanted to see instead of what was right in front of me.

i remember when i first tried to
tell him about what happened
to me.
i remember going up to him,
like any normal day,
and saying "hi."
he smiled,
asked whats up and
instead of being all cute
like i usually am,
my smile faded and i
couldn't speak.
he knew something was wrong and
he asked, "is it boy problems?"
i laughed a bit,
told him "kind of" and
then i backed away and
said "maybe next time."

i should've told you then.
maybe this hell i'm living in
wouldn't have been so hot with
you here to
cool me
off.

I almost ran out of my seat
Due to the feeling of
Vile coming up my
Throat.

But, I cannot tell wether
It is because I am hungry
Or if I am too stressed.

Maybe it is just a
Mixture of both.

how can i miss something
or someone that i've
never had?

i'm pretty ****
good at it,
if you ask
me.

I went to sleep thinking of you.
I dreamed of you.
I woke up thinking of you,
Smiling because of you.
Just because of you,
Today feels new.

God, she's my antidote and I
Need her real bad.

I will only allow gum and water
to go in my mouth.
I'll smile and watch as my
tummy goes hollow.
I'll feel nothing down my throat
go south.
Because after all,
Good girls don't swallow.
:)

-RA