Silently screaming in the shadows

My body gone
My voice mute
My words lost

Screaming to be herd
Wanting to speak
Needing you to know

But you don't
Because you're you
And you don't know

It will be ok
I vow
I promise

Why do I care
Why do I try
Why do I want to

Then I remember

You cant they say
You won't they say
You will die

I have herd this all my life

He's not strong enough
He's not smart enough
He's not good enough

And yet here I am,

Defying you
Standing in front of you
Telling you I can

The world has spent a life time telling me I can't.. I won't.
I have spent a life time proving it wrong

If I listened I would not be able to walk, to talk, read or write

I never gave up.
I never let them win

Not exactly human
A shadow
Not a man
A beast
The son of kings
The spawn of witch's

An animal, a wolf
With the will that is noble
And the power to live after death
A wisdom to know when to fight
And a soul not afraid of death
But the grace to know how to live

Two worlds
One body
One mind
One will
One heart
One soul

He can not be bought
He can not be made to fear
He will not be bullied
He can not be broken
He can not be bribed
He will never be caged

The wolf king
In the shadows
Knowing what he wants
Knowing what its worth
Knowing he is strong enough
Knowing his war maybe long but worth it

I remember it all.  The days just talking to you.
I know I lost some thing magical
I should be hurting
I know I should hate you

But I don't

Seeing you again
Your lips hopelessly fighting not to smile
Your lil grin telling me you where ok
Your eyes slowly glowing telling me it was alright

I know you
I feel you
I see you

I see you as you are. Inside, so wonderful and golden.
Glowing with hope and light
Wanting to be more then you are

You are dear to me
You know this
You always have been

I should be hurting
I should be screaming
I should hate you

But I don't

I never could hate you
I never could distrust you
I never could want any thing but for the best for you

Even if its not me

I will always be here for you
I will always try to help you
I will always care about you

I will always be me

I thank you for being there
I thank you for seeing me for more then I could see myself
I thank you for loving me all those years

I thank you

Thank you you for the words...

Monster...
Nothing...
Broken...
Wrong...
Hurtful...
Worthless...
Stupid...
Looser...

I am sure you would have thought of a few more but oh well I am sure I can figure them out. They mean alot to me.. they do.. I thank you. They will be with me for a long time <3

Your a beautiful monster,
But not really,
Your a beautiful lie,
You hide behind what you know,
But you dont hide anymore.
~
You are the pure,
You glow so bright
Your heart gentle but strong
Your voice brings me piece
You are my dreams, you always will be
~
you are the night,
you are the day,
you bring hope,
you bright dreams,
you are the night,
you are the day,
you bring love,
you bring compassion,
you are the night,
you are the day,
your heart is so pure,
your heart is so scared,
you are the night,
you are the day,
you build walls,
you build lies,
you are the night,
you are the day,
you keep the good,
you keep the bad,
you are the night,
you are the day,
your filled with fear,
your filled with resent,
you are the night,
you are the day,
you pull me near,
you pull me dear,
you are the night,
you are the day,
you hope,
you dream.
~
You know me i cant lie
You Know me I cant hide
you know me, you know how i feel
you know me, you know my darkness
you know me you have seen my light
you know me, the truth behind my mask
you know me, how I want to be
you know me how I cant
you know me better then any other
~
you let your walls come down,
you let the light shine,
from the moment you laid your lips apon mine,
that was your down fall,
baby,
you let me into your world,
you let me see the side of you,
that you didnt dare let the world see,
baby,
you dont have to hide from me,
i know you,
i know you so welll,
i know you,
thank you,
thank you for letting me see,
see that beautiful monster within
~
You made me better
You made me more
you saw me and know i was pure
You know the risks
You took my hand
You took my heart
you gave me more then any one ever has

~
Summer-Skye
~
Ranger

I want to say it
I cant
I fight my with my self
I promised I would not
I want it so bad
I feel my heart crying out
I reach out
I want to keep trying
I want to
I am scared
I shake
I tremble
I lost it
I want it back
I can't take it
I wont
I let it go
I know what I did
I couldn't keep it
I wanted to
I had no choice
I miss it so bad
I don't want to cause more pain
I don't want to hurt you
I don't want to burden you more
I don't want to go
I can't
I crumble
I die
I cheated
I hide more then you know
I never cheated tho
I hate
I hate my self
I love
I love you
I always have
I always will
I am here
I feel like I am fading
I am so cold
I can never show it
I can never cry
I am so dead inside
I wear a mask
I wear a smile
I wear it so people don't ask me how I am
I let them believe
I know the truth hurts
I know it can ****
I am a lie
I am living a lie
I would rather live a lie then face the truth
I am dieing
I am dead
I am a shell
I am no more

I crave you
I want you
I wait for you

My eyes spot you
My eyes move along your body
My eyes study you carefully

Slowly I draw near
Slowly may hands grip your body
Slowly I push you to the wall

You look up at me
You bite your lip nervously
Your heart starts to beat faster and faster

I come closer my body against yours
I come closer my lips finding your neck
I come closer my warm breath rolling down your tender skin

Can you feel it, my heart beat
Can you feel it, my hunger
Can you feel it, my need for you

The feeling of my teeth to your neck
The feeling of my nails sliding down your back
The feeling of my lips to yours taking your breath away

A sound, a gasp
A sound a grunt
A sound a soft moan

This is how it begins...

There is no such thing as a hot dog doughnut

Doing it fast might be needed
Doing it right the first time is worth it

Smile
It will make you feel better

Never back down
There is nothing you cant do if you have the will to stick with it

Never take no for an answer
There is a better answer out there just got to find it

Nothing worth it was ever easy
If it seems like the easy ways.. its probably way

Your first reaction is often the right one.
You might be worn down but don't forget what you felt

You get knocked down
Get up and keep swinging, you can rest when your dead

Its not going to stop until you fix it
Don't sit there and wait for life be what you want.

There is a way back form almost any mistake
You just need to find where it went wrong and find your self

Battles are fast
Wars take time

Never let some one else tell you you can't have some thing
Who are they to decide.

Calm and planning are key
But remember some times you need to do it. Dive in

The day will come when it will be ok
Might not be today or tomorrow but it will come

If it hurts to do it... Don't
If it hurts after you did it undo it

Grass maybe greener on the other side
But you got grass under you now

There are no stupid questions
Only stupid people who don't want to learn

Learn as much as you can
The world is a more interesting place when you understand it

Be open to believe
But don't back on a belief

Trust others as far as you can throw them
Those you can put in orbit won't betray that trust

Love with your heart
Not with your junk.. it doesn't work like that

Work first
Play after, it makes the play all the more enjoyable

People come and go out of your life
A few are worth holding on to, don't loose them

Not every "friend" is a friend worth keeping
It's hard to see some times but they will show who they are sooner or later

Don't be afraid of loosing
Be afraid of not playing

Don't let love go
No matter how hard it is to hold on to

Love comes back.
Don't force it. Don't rush it. If it was love it just needs time

It's not always love.
God knows what it is but it's not love

If some one says "you would if you loved me" to get there way
Bash them up side the head. Love is not leverage

Every one deserves a second chance
No one deserves a third  

If there going to leave for "not loving them" or giving them there way
Let them.. they would endure for you if it was

Take time out for little things
The big things are nice, but its the little things that get you there

Money is not easy to get
If some one is offering to give you a quick method don't take it

Its a trap
Or is it, don't get scared to find the truth

Money is nice but if you need to go through hell  then its not worth it
Find some thing you love doing to make cash. Even if its less

Don't be afraid to shoot to high
Just know it takes time to get there

Leave home, grow up, be your own boss
Its Freedom and its sweet

Know when its not worth it.
It's not quitting. Its knowing when its not worth it

Rome was not built in a day. But it burned in one night.. and its not gone
You might loose things fast but you can recover even if its not easy

Love with your heart. Don't hold back even if its going to get broken
That box, is a trap of its own

Life is worth living
Do things your scared to do things.

When a choice to change some thing because you want it. say yes
Looking back after years and being able to say i did that is worth it

Let it go.
If some one hurt you and there is nothing you can do let it go

Rage is a fuel but it will burn you out. My heart is failing because of it. Find some thing better worth living for

When you find some thing worth living for.
Never let it go, its like loosing your life

Life is special, and it may seem hard
Never throw it away

Never put off tomorrow what you can do today
Tomorrow will have its own task for you to face

Go to school. Yeah it *****. Do it
School affects options later on in life, you can get there but its not easy

Take care of your body
You only get one and replacement parts are hard to come by

Brush your teeth
There harder to fix after there destroyed

Don't lie
It will catch up to you one day down the road

Make piece with your demons
There there because you let them be

Enjoying some thing is fine
Enjoying to self destruction is not worth it

Fight when you must
But don't look for it

Don't bet on seemingly random things
Good bets are done with math and facts

Dose not matter if there is a god or not
You should answer to your self for what you did

Don't fight back feeling
That little voice is there to help you

Don't be afraid to change for the better
and question your self

....maybe there is a hot dog doughnut

Why do I miss you so much.
Why do I miss your smile
Why do I miss your grin
Why do I miss being next to you

Why do I miss you so much
I miss you being in the room
I miss the words we once spoke
I miss the sight of your eyes glowing with hope

Why do I miss you so much
I am scared to loose you again
I am scared you will run again
I am scared you will not be there when I need you

Why do I miss you so much
You're so sweet
You're so loving
You're so good deep down

Why do I miss you so much
Because you're perfect
Because you're pure
Because you're you

That's why I miss you so much

How do I tell you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the things I feel

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what I did

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what it ment to me

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you what I want

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the things I remember

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you all the happiness and joy you brought to me

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how badly I want to hold you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how much it hurts not to have you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how I still dream about you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you how much it hurts not to have you in my life

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you I love you

I say "it's ok"

How do I tell you

I say "it's ok" because I know that you know

I am your sword
I am your shield
My pride in those words
My honer to have my place
~
You
My Queen
My Goddess
The only thing to matter
The reason I exist
~
My Blade cut through the dark to show you a path
My Body bearing the strikes so you could stand
My Steel, My Will to stand by you Unbending
Never Breaking
Never Bending
Never questioning my place at your side
~
Until I was taken from you
Stolen away
You hurt
You could not fight for me any more
You let go
The weight to much
You let me go
~
Falling in to the Darkness
Lost
Without a hand to hold me
With out the strength to move i could not fight
The pride, the shine fading in the black
The honor to fight for you faded
~
I am a Sword.
I am a Shield
I am Alone
I am Here
I am Waiting

I Remember
I Dared
I Dared to Dream
I Dared to Hope
I Dared to Hope my Dream would be
I Dared Hope my Dreams would be shared one day
I Lived for my Dream
I Lived for Hope
I Lived for you

But now your gone

I have no more Dreams..
I have no more Hope..
I have lost them all..

But I still Dare..
I still Dare to Dream..