all that pain
and belittlement
you served me
day and night
when no one
was looking
made the little
man within you
feel much, much,
much bigger
but now you
stand before me
weeping
with no teeth
and the big man
within me
has forgiven you.

Just now

lost Kichi--

my girlfriend

panicked &

FREAKED out.

i did not;

alas i

felt as a scoundrel!

a no-good!

WHODOESNOTPANICGODDAMNIT

&

ialwaysknewyoydidntcareyoupsychopathnarcissist.

then walked

a slow

up the

roads ahead--

she with

a new pack of three.

i said

i am not proud enough

to say i will care for Kichi

more than these three of her own kind.

well, anyways-

wind and breeze.

green trees and

WATCHING A LOT OF HUMAN CHILDBIRTH VIDEOS.

i am too,
so much blood,
on these nails.

My tears
arent enough--
not ever.

in all these nights;
blood spilling left right--
and we are all
just kept dragging delusionally.

Yes
this
changes
now.

In ten days,
the whole bowels,
finally cleared - spring.

Be nice
be sweet
dont fight
only smiles
be fake
dont **** especially
**** often
youre worthless
youre trash
behave boy
always behave
dont fight
dont rouse
be quiet
be still
shut up
be good
force goodness
be nice
be sweet
do more
forced humility
behave boy
youre trash
be good
OR ELSE.

Oh

so much adultery;
tobacco, chocolate, coffee, ***** (SHROOMS!!)--

Yes.

Oh so many lovers,
no care for-
G-END'er;

oh my holes and my letting--
blood no less;

STRIP
off mewings and then!

** hey!

now come again,
come come c-
OM--
again!

this intoxicant as
LOVERS!--
amidst a distant revel rumble rustling roots rather resting really --

dadumpdadumpdadumpdadump!

OVER-
stimulated;

o-
come of it
yer

JUST

a ***** and no no no no!-
no more.

yes,
intoxicated and rather--

(whats that word again? (you're just trying to impress you know it!(hey dont scold him!) - im not just pointing out that hes being flamboyant!(well leave 'im Be!) ; sigh) right! remembered!)-

reveling.

just let out a really long ****.

today I've decided to cut ties with parents & bro.

oh you know! this means extended family too!

woohoo! well, yes, yes, i hear ya- what about dolladolladolladolla bills?

** hey! yes that too there be and slowslowslow slowly!

and now i take a deep breath.

ten thousand days i have spent in that fire.

always blames myself - o yea--

thats 27 years by THE WAY!-

kichi growls at bhavana- she herself gave her the foodo.

and now a fresh morning.

and here a new story unfolds.

oh guilt oh shame- ye've loved me so!

thank ye for keeping ke warm and pointing to me.

pointing where home is no longer home.

but a collection of ******* fatcats waiting for their

MOREMOREMOREMOREMORE.

and yes, we do come from a rich family- allthebetter;

i would say- yes!

and further- hey thats me!- this is it-!-

that i stand my own. thanks for all the--