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254 · Dec 2014
blank spaces
raenona Dec 2014
it's not too hard to see through these tears i'm hiding
i promise you i don't know why
i just start to cry
254 · Oct 2014
beauty
raenona Oct 2014
she had the sky in her eyes
the grass in her hair
and blood on her wrists
254 · Dec 2015
#
raenona Dec 2015
#
i learned from my dad
that promises aren't kept
being unfaithful is normal
i hate you
you want her
you need her
i know i ****** up
i learned from my dad
that i don't care
i never will
he doesn't give a **** about me
i hate you
i learned from my dad
to not expect anything
i can't put anyone else above
me
i hate you
you want her
you need her
i need you
i want you
251 · Aug 2014
8/30/14
raenona Aug 2014
I've never felt so insignificant in my life
Like just another leaf on a tree
Another dog in the park
Another cloud in the sky
251 · Jan 2015
a lot like the earth
raenona Jan 2015
you hold me when i'm sitting on the floor and the cries come out of me like thunder in a storm
you grab my hands when they are trembling like branches in the wind
you look into my eyes when the tears flow like a flood
you kiss my scars that look like red rock and you kiss my bruises that are so purple like the galaxies in outer space
you rub my back even when i am sweating from all of the tears
you reassure me when my mind is full of dark storm clouds
you are my sun in a day full of storm
250 · Jan 2016
myself
raenona Jan 2016
I'm drinking by myself
I don't know if i'm your girlfriend or not
you don't know I love you
holding the neck of the bottle
as tight as I clench your hand
I'm drinking by myself
I wish you were here
d.stanfill
249 · Oct 2014
today
raenona Oct 2014
10/27/2014

making someone smile gives me a fraction of peace because i think that at least people will have something to look back on when i'm dead.

make sure you eat dinner.

the time is falling like the leaves around you. move quickly.

don't let anyone tell you you're not worth it.
243 · May 2016
grieving..
raenona May 2016
although it feels as though the pieces of your life
are shattered right now,
you can put them back together,
reassemble all of the sharp edges,
piece by piece
although it may not look the same,
you can say you did it
you put yourself back together
rest in peace 4/17/2016
240 · Jan 2015
1.8.15
raenona Jan 2015
everybody's eyes are on me
they watch and they mock
they pick and they pick until they find just enough imperfections to set me over the edge
i stand in front of them all hoping to leave some sort of impression
they judge you before even getting to know you
they barely give themselves the chance because they are caught up in who they are

but life isn't about that
life is about an act of kindness
just one hug or smile that could make someone's day turn upside down
it's about waking up each morning believing you are able to do anything, to be anyone
in the end, it's all up to you
make it worth it
"perhaps she was a shooting star, or a golden drop of sun?"
239 · Oct 2015
flying (through hell)
raenona Oct 2015
put your oxygen mask on
before you assist others
238 · Nov 2014
bright lights
raenona Nov 2014
it's better if i don't speak
leave every secret in a safe
can't stop the chaos inside my brain
i swear to god i'm trying my hardest
i'm going to explode
it'd be like a ******* explosion in the sky
too bright to be beautiful for most people
but hopefully one person with the right telescope will think i'm beautiful
even if he needs to guard his eyes
238 · Oct 2014
is it ok to be angry
raenona Oct 2014
i still listen to the music we listened to in your car on one of our road trips
and all of my friends, they know
they know i haven't been able to handle it
i can't handle the ******* heartbreak i feel everyday
yea, it'll get better over time
but
it's been a ******* year why am i not ok
why can i still not breath when i hear your name
why do i sit there with a blank stare when i have flashbacks of my hair blowing in the wind and your left hand on the steering wheel and your right hand on my knee
tracing infinity signs into my skin
leaving a feeling i'll never be able to ******* forget
238 · Sep 2014
Novel
raenona Sep 2014
Tender, your love
i was your favorite book on your read list
each corner of my pages
folded

Savored, your quotes
you are my words to live by
you are my very existence
in each turn of my page

Precious and innocent,
little me
sitting there on your big bookshelf
your palms gripping my back
231 · Dec 2014
....
raenona Dec 2014
I'D LET YOU RIP OUT MY GIANT HEART THAT WON'T STOP BEATING AND I'D LET YOU KISS MY UNTIL MY LIPS BECAME NUMB BECAUSE I'D BE YOUR PAPER DOLL IF YOU WANTED TO PLAY. YOU'RE THE ******* NIGHT SKY AND I WANT YOU TO KISS ME BENEATH THE STARS. GOD LET'S GO TO THE CITY AND LET'S GET LOST IN THE BOULEVARDS AT NIGHT. TELL ME YOU LOVE ME. JUST GIVE ME SOMETHING. YOU COULD BE TWO DRINKS IN AND I'D BE THE ALCOHOL IN YOUR GLASS.
230 · Jan 2015
another 5 words
raenona Jan 2015
I can't do this anymore.
229 · Oct 2015
a really shitty night
raenona Oct 2015
it was pouring down rain but i could still feel the tears rushing down my face. i sat on my driveway looking at the stars.
229 · Dec 2015
caution
raenona Dec 2015
you've never felt heartbreak until you have heard the tears
rolling down your cheek, you haven't said a word to anyone in days
you can't pick up your razor, your hands are too weak
your hands can still feel his hands
you're wearing his sweater from a night you'll always remember
you can't handle the fact that it should be hurting you more than this
you've felt alone for so long now
you've never felt heartbreak until you have to wrap the caution tape
around, and around your heart
228 · Oct 2014
idek
raenona Oct 2014
it's not fair.
i feel your heart beating and it's closing off the blood flow to my brain.
i want to be able to fix your problems and know how you feel and tell you you're beautiful.
but i can't. you don't let me.
228 · Dec 2015
r
raenona Dec 2015
r
you're meaner than my demons
227 · Jan 2016
tower
raenona Jan 2016
you
keep
building
up my hope
like a tower, higher
and higher
what are you waiting for
nobody will love you more
i can't keep waiting i will love you more
227 · Dec 2015
who is in control
raenona Dec 2015
you're only happy when your head is filled with dope
i keep jumping at the slightest of sounds
you can't see the person inside of me
keep putting the mask on
you're only happy when my clothes are on your floor
should the pain scare me
im familiar with what's inside of my head
you beg me to tell you
but you're not happy
unless your sorry head is filled with dope
i should be scaring you
227 · Dec 2015
weapons
raenona Dec 2015
you angrily held my hips
you set fire to my gasoline
you scratched my back
"**** me tonight"
your teeth felt so good on my lip
are you insane like me
you squeezed my thighs
i needed to be closer to you
"baby girl"
your tongue was a weapon
you felt like a weapon
you kissed my neck
i needed to be closer to you
d.stanfill
219 · Aug 2014
Untitled
raenona Aug 2014
YOUVE ALREADY STABBED ME PLEASE STOP TWISTING THE KNIFE
218 · Apr 2015
ink me
raenona Apr 2015
you hate tattoos and that should make sense to me because you're afraid of commitment
217 · Nov 2014
im so tired
raenona Nov 2014
living with the "your daughter is severely depressed"
means that you need medicine to function
it's not just a cry for attention
it means you have to search and search for a reason to get out of bed in the morning
you think its over, but then it comes back next winter
you think you're fine, something will hit you, and you can't leave bed for days
im sorry i can't help it, mom
214 · Nov 2014
e.m.w.
raenona Nov 2014
11/27


look what you've done to me
i'm tied down
all my life
i've been on my own
but i'm yours now
and there's no other place i'd rather go
no other place that would compare
to the way you make me feel
baby, look
you've got me in the palm of your hands
i can tell this love is real
look what you've done
you smile and it changes my entire world
i'm yours
and you better be mine
211 · Dec 2015
soul
raenona Dec 2015
when i told you i wanted you forever
i was giving you a piece of my soul
theres a boy who thinks he wants that piece of my soul
he should know that i am insane
i can hear them whisper but
i had told you i wanted you forever
you couldn't say it back
i can't wake up
i wish this were a dream
207 · May 2016
weather
raenona May 2016
i sit in my room with the blinds closed and the lights off. i can hear the rain on the gutters, the gentle wind against my walls. i think about you. i fold and unfold one of your shirts that i never gave back. i accidentally washed it. how could i be so stupid to get rid of a smell so heavenly? the rain picks up and it's almost unpleasant. i sit with my eyes closed hoping i can remember what its like to feel your lips against my neck. all this time is passing by and i can't seem to remember what happened and why. i can tell that clouds are bunching up in the sky. i can hear the gathered rainwater falling to the ground off of the trees. i can hear you say my name.
d.stanfill.
202 · Jan 2016
Untitled
raenona Jan 2016
you told me you loved me again
i was the drunk one
i almost killed myself that night
you followed me home
to make sure i came back
d.s.
197 · Aug 2014
3/16/14
raenona Aug 2014
Some people think that they are so powerful. But that's not the case.
We're all equal. We're all just ethic to keep our heads above water. But oh lord. Lord, am I sinking.
197 · Dec 2015
scars
raenona Dec 2015
scars are just another type of memory but all of my scars scare me
some deep, some thin
some from yesterday,
some within
these lines each have a story
some because i deserved it,
some because i couldn't handle it
197 · Dec 2015
..
raenona Dec 2015
..
when it's five in the morning and all i can imagine is your hands against my skin it becomes so hard to even breathe
196 · Dec 2015
e
raenona Dec 2015
e
she'll never know you like i know you
195 · Jan 2016
Untitled
raenona Jan 2016
some say there is beauty in the pain
i don't think you know how i have changed all my plans
theres so much time left for me
193 · Aug 2014
Untitled
raenona Aug 2014
the thought of going somewhere nobody knows my name
gives me such joy

the image of a new me
makes me feel like the sunrise on a new day
191 · Dec 2015
,
raenona Dec 2015
,
the last time i saw you,
i could hear my heart breaking
i felt it between us,
the distance
i tried to stay hopeful,
i saw it in your eyes
how did we get to this point,
it was like the timing was off
you were thunder,
i was lightning
e.m.w.
190 · Dec 2014
never
raenona Dec 2014
i've never been a first choice
i've always been an object
i've never loved like this
i've never been loved like this
187 · Oct 2014
i should be a doctor
raenona Oct 2014
i've never felt this helpless in my life
what does one do when people around you are dying of cancer
each cell of theirs ******* poison to their body
and all you can do is watch them die
slowly and painfully
186 · Aug 2014
do you see me
raenona Aug 2014
when your hands cup my chin
or the small of my back

and you're looking into my eyes

do you see the shattered pieces of my heart
do you see the never ending dark hallways in the back of my head
183 · Jan 2015
Untitled
raenona Jan 2015
you make me feel safe even when my whole ******* world is crashing down
183 · Oct 2014
Untitled
raenona Oct 2014
**** the old pictures of you and I
178 · May 2016
Untitled
raenona May 2016
on rainy days i miss u
i let u see all of my secrets
we left them on the porch
i left u on a rainy day
i wish u could have saved me
i wish u would have said something
when i walked out ur door
176 · Aug 2014
7/5/14
raenona Aug 2014
At least we're under the same sky.
175 · Dec 2014
i. dark colors
raenona Dec 2014
my colorful mind has turned into black and whites, there's nothing to keep me going. won't it please stop? i want you to love me 'til i'm me again. my head barely leaves my pillow and my hands never stop shaking. my throat is so tight from holding back screams and words that were made for you but they got lost in the graveyard of my mouth.
174 · Aug 2014
7/17/14
raenona Aug 2014
I thought you were my medicine but you turned out to be my poison.
I thought I needed you always but now I hardly want you.
169 · Dec 2014
Untitled
raenona Dec 2014
I wrote down your name when you checked mine off.
- my ten word story
164 · Nov 2014
eyes
raenona Nov 2014
i wish your eyes were as transparent as the alcohol you used to drown yourself in
maybe then i could know what your thinking
instead, all i see is the sky
i wonder what you see when you look into my eyes
158 · Aug 2014
3/12/14
raenona Aug 2014
I'm flesh & bones
I'm a rolling stone
But he holds my bones up
And he is the blood running through me.
155 · Aug 2014
Untitled
raenona Aug 2014
I'll never know what you felt when I told you I loved you

I'll never ******* know
152 · Sep 2014
9/16/14
raenona Sep 2014
it's really hard
to keep yourself going
when all around you,
people are leaving

no matter how close they are to you
they leave
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