i sit in my room with the blinds closed and the lights off. i can hear the rain on the gutters, the gentle wind against my walls. i think about you. i fold and unfold one of your shirts that i never gave back. i accidentally washed it. how could i be so stupid to get rid of a smell so heavenly? the rain picks up and it's almost unpleasant. i sit with my eyes closed hoping i can remember what its like to feel your lips against my neck. all this time is passing by and i can't seem to remember what happened and why. i can tell that clouds are bunching up in the sky. i can hear the gathered rainwater falling to the ground off of the trees. i can hear you say my name.