Sometimes I wish
Life was a given
And decisions weren't a burden
Sometimes I wish
That our paths were clear
And that we were told to go "here, here, and there"

Sometimes I wish
That friends could just stay friends
And that my feelings reminded purely platonic
Sometimes I wish
There were no longings for desire or affection
No rejection or affirmations

Sometimes I wish
That these thoughts of you would go away
They seems so rash and illicit
And yet sometimes I wish
I could give into this temptation
With no retributions or puzzled stares

I admit that sometimes I wish
You were secretly adorning me
The way I have with you

And it is foolish to believe
That sometimes I wish
There could be a great love between us two

I would rather dive head first
into the sea
than get on my knees
and beg you to come back to me
yet deep inside I cannot deny
that visions of you
I do still contrive

It seems so easy to relapse
and reminisce
about those times
long gone by

Glasses placed beside the bed
Fingertips tracing over lithe limbs
I felt so warm with you
by my side
and when I looked into those blue-green eyes
the butterflies would never die

Forever locked in a sweet, misty haze
I thought we could stay this way
and yet as I lay in ecstasy
you were already done with me

I do not blame you
for what you cannot control
yet I still pine for you ever more
and as I watch the break of day
I just have to tell myself
you're far away