It's never going to work out
they used to tell me
but I shoved them away
almost three months later
you weren't part of my life
           but I needed you
                     I still do
      You were my best friend first
why couldn't you see that
I try to catch a glimpse of you every now and again
but seeing your face breaks my heart
and I know my heart ache will never end
                     so suddenly I feel I need to move on no matter
how hard it is for me not to love you
                  I can't because this is all my fault
And I hate myself more and more every day
because I hurt you
and that to me is the worst mistake I ever ******* made
You were everything to me
remember the hugs?
how bout the kisses?
remember homecoming?
The way we ditched it?
Walked around the building while it was raining?
    Now all it does is rain
I'm tired of rain it reminds me of that night
when we were so happy
now all I think about is your laughter
It's okay that you hate me
for I am to blame
          But lying to you
was the worst ******* mistake I've ever made