How many times does is take
How many bruises must I make
How many smiles must I fake
You tell me, how bad does it hurt
Did you fall hard
Did you break your heart
You broke mine
Thats not fair to say
You didn't mean to
You didn't know
How bad it would hurt when I fell
Into the pit of feelings
This must not make any sense to you
but thats not the point
Dig deeper
Breathe harder
Its too much these days
With the air suffocating me
The weight pressing down
I can hear my ribs crack
But i feel nothing remember
Not a thing
Im not real
Im nothing
But nothing isn't such a bad thing to be
Im evil.
I worm my way into the heart
Trying to feel something
Something at all
But i feel nothing remember
Not a thing
I scratch at the membrane thats holding your sanity together
Tearing away a little at a time
Making my way
Into your mind
Into your soul
But i feel nothing remember
Not a thing
So pay me no mind
Drop me like im nothing
Weightless
Really its okay
I understand
I would do the same
Infact i already have
I feel nothing remember
Not a thing
Besides that awful snapping
Of my heart.
Of my soul.
I've already dropped myself
Just like you knew i would
You called it.