I remember one time
You came over
And when I opened the door
You sorta met my eye
And had a little smile
On your face
As you brushed by
It was just enough
That I knew you were
Happy to see me
Not just as a friend
Or a familiar face
But someone
You had been wanting
To see all day
And I smiled back
As I closed the door
Or I was already smiling
As soon as I heard your car
And we had fun that night
You might have left earlier
Than I would have liked
But we were smiling
And you were mine for that time
And now I don't know
What happened
Wind blew
And time
And conversations
Anxiety and drugs
Fear and distance
Coughing these up in our lungs
When we took hits
From your blunts
Suddenly it wasn't just fun
Nothing can be easy
Nothing simple
I still think about you
All the time
And I still open the door
But when I do
You're not there
And
I don't smile
So much anymore